To My Heart

Heather Lee

I am me, i ain't pretentious no more. You gotta know me to find it out. And, music definitely is in me ;)
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My Dream

I would like to travel around the world with a loved one and watch as many sunsets as i can. It would be best if the weather is good and it comes with magnificent sceneries and the sounds of nature. Sometimes, i gotta admit that the sound of nature is euphoric. I want to stay in a hotel room on the top floor with a full window view of a busking city so that when i look out of the window at night, i see the beautiful lights under the dark quiet sky. I want to visit Chicago, Cassablanca and Massachusetts. I heard the western countryside is nice. Its simple but beautiful. Quiet but filled with laughter of the people who are contented with what they have over there. I want to experience a farm stay. Wake up to the sounds of the farm animals. Bathe horses and milk cows. I want to see real cowboys and join them for their campfire gathering sessions. As well as sing along to the good old folk songs that they play with their guitars and banjos. One day, eventually, i believe i will find a guy who will bring me to all these places, experience the life that i've mentioned and maybe more, as well as spend the rest of his life with me till we both turn old and grey. Until then, we will still stroll on the beach hand in hand, as we watch the sun submerge into the vast seas once again.
-Heather :)

Part of my life

♥ Tiffany ♥
♥ Eileen :)
♥ Kah Yee
Andy Anna ChuXuan DeXuan Daniel Eunice EuropeBlog HuiHan Isaac Joanne Jenson Joey Kai Hoon KahYee Natasha Pearlyn Rachel Rence Samson Shahirah ThaiSiong Willie YuXiang

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Monday, May 30, 2011 @ 9:27 PM

I made it for audition! Made it into the main vocalists team =D
*Happy*
I really didnt expect this because so many people took part!! And i really wanna thank friends who encouraged me, like really from the bottom of my heart :)
I AM REALLY HAPPY OMG~!!!!!!
Didn't go for the agm, which was the announcement of the results cos i was afraid of bad news. Thanks to huihan who smsed me the results first hand! :D I was damn nervous when i saw his name in my inbox. LOL
Yay! ^^

Friday, May 27, 2011 @ 1:24 PM

I just did this colour personality test thingy and these are the results that i got. ^^

Your Existing Situation

"Creative and emotional, looking for ways to further expand those qualities. Looking for a partner who enjoys the same activities. Seeking adventure and new and unusual activities."

Your Stress Sources

"Avoids pressure from others and insists on developing her individual independence. Wants to make up her own mind with resistance from others or outside forces, and needs the freedom to make her own decisions. Wants to be looked at as a wise individual whose opinions are respected, and has a hard time admitting she is wrong. Can be reluctant to accept or understand other people's opinions or point of view."

Your Restrained Characteristics

"Although she is able to find contentment through sexual activity, she feels hopeless to change her problems and difficulties and continues to make the best of what she has."

"Seeking to broaden her horizons and believes her hopes and dreams are realistic. Worries she may not be able to do the things she wants and needs to escape to a peaceful, quiet environment in order to restore her confidence."

"Insists her hopes and ideas are realistic and achievable, but needs encouragement and support. her self-centeredness can cause her to take things too personally."

Current events have her feeling forced to make bargains and put aside her own desires for now. she is able to find satisfaction and happiness through sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective

Searching for ways to relieve stress. Longs for a peace and happiness.

Your Actual Problem

"Wants to be valued and respected, seeks a close and peaceful relationship with a shared respect of each other."

Your Actual Problem #2

"Prefers to be left in peace and avoids arguments, confrontation, and conflicts."

Tuesday, May 24, 2011 @ 10:25 PM

Screwed. Damn, i'm just trying to keep the promises i made!! I hate people backing out on me at the last minute therefore i don't do that to others!! Argh.

Even if i want to, we can't start or even try things out if you still can't let go of your past. :(

Sunday, May 22, 2011 @ 9:23 PM

Kbox lunch session with Chuyun and BBQ with iras peeps at DTE yesterday!!
I swear going to kbox with Chuyun is damn awesome because its like she knows every song i select! And the best part is, all the songs are the super super super old ones, and in cantonese, and both of us know how to sing! Omg i love her so much. :D
After kbox went down to the ntuc to meet Joseph and Willie to buy food for the bbq.
Cabbed to our pit, which is, the freaking last pit. Right at the corner, pit 64. Not bad, we actually managed to book the one and only pit that was left. (Y) Long live AuWillie :)
It was damn hot and sunny when we reached the pit so chuyun and i acted like bimbos. We actually tried to start the fire with umbrellas over our heads!! And there were only the 2 of us and weiying cos the rest went to collect the catering. But in the end we really got the fire starting, thanks to some uncle nearby! :)
Well the bbq was fun, the food was great. Chit chatted and played games and i think Ziyi's army phone is awesome!! Its damn small and lao kok but it has wireless and radio!! Lol to be frank im really amused by it. The cycling part was also good just that it was at night and i couldnt really see well. And we had a hard time teaching funsize how to cycle cos she kept falling and screaming. Ok i damn lazy to blog now so i'll just end this post with a photo :)

Oh, did i mention that Ziyi came too?? Hahaha this is the first time i'm seeing him ever since he entered army!! :D

Wednesday, May 18, 2011 @ 7:26 PM

So i gotta pretend that i'm not gonna miss you.
I gotta pretend that this is what i wanna do.
I gotta pretend when i walk out that door, that i don't love you anymore.
Gotta play my part, act like it ain't killing me.

More problems. Damn, why can't they just disappear into thin air and let me live my life in peace?!
Freaking annoying.

And, if you're unhappy with me in one way or another, tell me straight into my face. Hiding and talking behind my back only shows that you've got no guts and i'm AHEAD of you :p

Sunday, May 15, 2011 @ 6:18 PM

Audition is over!! Wooh! A small load off my mind.
But well, audition was awesome! It wasn't as bad and scary as i thought it would be.
But yea i had like 8 people watching and listening to me sing. Nerve wrecking at first, but then after i settled down, everything went well :) Sang the song that i prepared, then on the spot they tested another two songs. Now, this is the advantage of patronizing ktv outlets frequently ;D
Anyw, i received really good comments from the judges and i'm darn happy!
I really wanna thank friends who encouraged and supported me to go for the audition.
And those who gave me huge assurance, especially Tiffany, Daryl and Willie! Not forgetting CAR-E! (:
Results will be out on the 30th. Long wait i know. I'm not sure if im able to make it, cos so many others signed up for the audition, but i'm happy enough just to know that there are friends who support me. :D
Oh ya, and there was this girl who brought her whole freaking family along to watch her audition. It was like her parents, 2 sisters and her granny was there. -.- Hello?? You think you auditioning for some Hollywood production??? -.-
LOL, when she walked in to the waiting room another guy and i exchanged looks and we started laughing.

I happened to have found out something, which made me real sad. And no, i can't do anything about it.
I can only sob in my shithole.

I went to the airport alone, found a nice spot in the viewing mall and set down. I think i saw 5 airplanes took off. I started thinking as usual and then i realised, i get tired of thinking, i just couldnt focus on what i was supposed to be concentrating on. Maybe, just maybe, this time, i'm really tired of everything.
Everyday i see people, i smile, i laugh. When im tired and not showing any sorts of expression, they say i show black face. What else can i say?
I have a story to tell, a very long one. But no one bothers to listen and understand.
I have complaints to make, but no one cares enough to rectify what i'm unhappy with.
I have opinions to voice out, but most people seem to disagree with my views.
I have tears to cry, but no one bothers to wipe them off.
Why is it always me listening to peoples' problems, me helping them to solve their problems, me trying my best to keep everything going well, me doing all the shit chores, me accommodating others, me letting others choose what they want first, me trying to keep my temper and emotions under control so that matters don't get worse while others get to throw their tempers around?
WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME?!
Seriously, fuck it. I'm screaming inside but no one hears it.
I feel like going somewhere far far away for awhile, with the company of someone who really cares, just to be away from all the problems.

One day, i'll get so tired i wont say anything, anymore. Except the word BYE.

Sunday, May 08, 2011 @ 2:57 PM

Its a hot and lazy Sunday afternoon. The weather is sooooo warm i feel so frustrated. My Daddy say this kind of weather can make people fight. LOL :D

Well, GE's results are already out.
Really happy with the results! Though many people may not agree with what i think. But i believe, time will prove everything. Stop arguing with me when you don't even know what the heck is going on or what the hell you're talking about. I don't argue for the sake of arguing. And there's really no point in arguing because firstly, we're not members of the parliament and secondly, we have no say in running the country. So, yea, im not going to say eat that up :p

Audition is coming up and i guess i've already decided on which song to use.
Damn nervous i swear. I only have 5 days from now to prepare and i'm still not practising properly yet.
If i pass this, i'll be moving on to something bigger with my best friend. So, *keep fingers crossed*

On a side note, i enjoy having dinner with iras friends because all of us are so full of shit :D

Ok, im going to do some finishing touches to Proins prac answers now. Damn, there's school tmr :(

Sometimes, i wish we didn't become friends in that place. Because then our friendship will be so much better because there will be no barriers at all. No jealousy, no competition, no eyesore-ness.
But yea, life doesnt always work out the way we want it to.

Thursday, May 05, 2011 @ 11:40 PM

Just a short post.
I realised i'm insignificant when it comes to certain things.
You know, when people don't take your opinion into consideration at all.
And when you're serious, they take it as you're kidding.
The worse thing is, when you're kidding, they think you're serious.
Seriously, why do such people exist.

To be frank, i was really sad today.
Because of 3 matters.
How should i put it..
Ok, i thought it was something thats shared only between us.
But it looks like its not the case.
I tried ignoring, but i couldnt. If i could fake it, trust me i would. But i just can't.
Well, eventually you stopped, but for what reason i do not know. When you stopped, i felt a sense of relief. But i know this isn't getting anywhere. I'm just into something that i shouldn't.
Damn, life's hard.

Maybe, just maybe, i should heed her advice. Leave and experience a new life somewhere else.
But yea, it takes lots of courage. Because i'll be all alone.
But oh well, its not the first time that i'm alone anyway.

This place sucks.
I WANT TO GO HOME.

P/S: Ziyi is officially enlisted into army as of today. Hope everything goes well for him! :D

Tuesday, May 03, 2011 @ 10:27 PM

Seriously, give me an air ticket now and i will leave this goddamn place straightaway. I'm just so freaking sick and tired of everything here.

@ 8:53 PM

I spent my public holiday very happily! :D

Went for karaoke session with Iras peeps and this is the first time there's so many people! It was at NUSS, Suntec. Awesome time singing together! But i couldnt get KY SIA to open her golden mouth to sing -.-
Ordered drinks and played games also, then everyone started getting high and danced especially Willie and Daryl. They're so fos! :p
After singing we went for steamboat dinner at bugis. The steamboat comes with a hot plate so you can either boil or bbq the food. Ok la i know i suaku, but i really first time eat like that ma! LOL.
In conclusion, its just a great day out :D
Looking forward to the next outing with them :DDD

Now i finally know why i got that result. Why i had equal points for all columns.
But i guess when i tell people why, they wont believe me.
So i'll just keep it to myself.
I feel like as though no one understands me.

Sunday, May 01, 2011 @ 2:39 PM

Its the end of the week, and tomorrow is a holiday, again! Yay! :D
I guess tomorrow's gonna be a fun day out!

Well this week had been quite busy, with so many practicals!
We have to wear long pants almost everyday and i don't like it.
Whats wrong with tasting food with shorts? Its not like i'm tasting acid and if i spill it, it will corrode my skin right? Moreover, we have our labcoat on -.-
OCRM and PROINS are killer modules, its proven, because more than 5 people are forwarding these two modules. I guess i'll be the next one. But oh wells, what else can i do besides worrying and studying even harder?

Btw, i think i made awesome friends in iras! Had been going out with them quite often, thanks to people like huijun and sarah who likes to organise outings!
Had dinner with them on Friday at Marche, but only 8 of us made it. First time at Marche, i would say the food is not bad, but the portion is small and its expensive! So, i think its not worth it. But you have to go there at least once because i think the setting and atmosphere is great :D
Also had a great time crapping with them!

Saturday, which was Sarah's church's Sports day, which was also yesterday. Ok why am i being so long winded but anyway, I got sun burnt! Yay! :D
I couldn't rmb when was the last time i got sunburnt. I think my skin is too good thats why i'm so not proned to sun burnts. =P
Woke up early in the morning, met Ky, Huijun, Weiying, Chuyun, Daryl, Willie, Soonyang and Esther at tpy mrt, then we headed to Sarah's church. Took the bus to some bishan field and guess what? It was raining! Waited for 1 hour plus for the rain to stop and i thought the competition will be cancelled because the filed was all muddy and wet but NO! They went on with it! OMG, so there i was walking on the muddy field. Luckily i wore old school shoes!
Yea so we played captain's ball on the muddy field and everyone got dirty at least. Especially the guys! I see already i wanna laugh :p
My team was out in the second round so we decided to cheer for Huijun's team instead. I think we make the noisiest opponent because we just scream and cheer non stop :)
In the end, they came in 3rd! Or is it the 4th? LOL i not sure but there were prizes and so nice of them to share the prizes with us! Its some voucher for Mind's cafe :D
After the event, went to J8 for lunch, Daryl was attracting so much attention because his clothes were covered with soooooo much mud. Everyone just stared at him when he walks pass them.
After lunch went home to bathe and rest, then met up for pool with Willie, Chuyun and Daryl again at 6.30pm. (Now i start to wonder why i have so much energy to do so many things when its non school related). And i realise i'm not that noob in pool afterall because i only lost to Willie by 3 balls and he's pro! He actually taught me how to play and i taught chuyun how to play! Daryl kept saying he's a noob but then end up hor, he's damn pro. -.-
Went for dinner, crapped more, then headed home. I'm so sad Chuyun will not be in Singapore for 2 weeks!
:(

If i'm a bitch, then what are you? ^^
I'm not trying to be an angel, i don't even believe in angels so yea, eat that up. :)
And, if there's anyone who should be shutting up, i guess it should be you, not me.
As compared to you, i'm already considered soft spoken :)