I am me, i ain't pretentious no more. You gotta know me to find it out. And, music definitely is in me ;)
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I just realised i've successfully resisted the urge to blog for 10 whole days and i see it as a form of achievement!
So i guess this post is gonna be quite a long one.

Well, Sem exams have started. Two papers down, two more to go.
I have been sleeping really little recently because of exams and the feeling is really undesirable. It leaves me with a tired body, not-so-nice skin, puffy eyes, eye bags, dark eye circles and a blue mood :(
Today was EMI exam, and i didn't sleep for the entire night before the exam! I really wonder how i did it. And instead of heading home to bed after the paper, i actually went to watch movie with Ky and Amelia!! :D
I AM NO. FOUR is totally awesome! Anyone suffering from exam stress should catch it. I was freaking tired but i stayed awake throughout the entire movie because i just cant bear to fall asleep and miss out any part of it :)

Many things happened in the past 2 weeks.
But there's no point listing everything out here.

I wonder if i can make it to year two without repeating any modules.
I promise i will work extra extra hard if i ever make it.
If i can't, then i'll probably have to face up to reality and leave.
I know i've been saying this since the mid of semester 1 but i'm really serious this time round.

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The following paragraph is dedicated to my bff aka beloved twin, TIFFANY KOH YUAN EN :) Bitch, i know you will see this, i actually wanted to spam your tagboard but god knows why you removed it! So i'll throw everything here instead :)


I know you're going through a rough patch in your education life right now. I know how it feels when everything goes wrong in school and you find yourself lagging behind others. I know how it feels when you have to force yourself to study things that you have no interest in and end up getting shit grades. Trust me, i know, i experienced it before too. I cried, and cried again because i felt lost and nobody could help me except myself. I look at my grades and i swear i felt like banging my head against the wall because the grades were a far cry from what i usually get in Secondary school. I almost gave up.
But believe me, if you put in just a little bit more of effort, and you think of the people around you, those who really want you to do well and those you feel you have to do well for, you will be able to make it.
More than half a year ago, I thought  i was a goner. But see? I made it up till today. Though i've not thoroughly completed year 1, at least i made it past semester 1, which initially i thought i wouldnt. 
So my point is, dont give up yet. At least not now. Just for this period of time, give it your best shot. If you've tried your best and still feel that this isnt what you want, then try another path, alright? 
I'm sure by then your mum will understand and support you. Don't worry, if she doesnt, i will nag at her and keep psycho-ing her until she agrees with me!! :)
I just want you to know that even if all your friends walked out on you, you still have me. If you need any help, i'm just 8 numbers away. I can do away with sleep just for you, like how i dont sleep when i have exams! I'll support you in anything you do (except for tattoos) :)
I know this is not at all easy. But for the sake of yourself and for those who really care, its definitely worth it.
Let's work hard together okay?? ^.^
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I'm having mixed feelings right now. I'm not sure if i made a right decision in telling them about how i feel.
I'm just afraid word might get out, and i end up being shunned.
I really don't hold any hopes about it. I just want to keep it in my heart because i know nothing will come out of it. Its impossible.
Seriously, i don't even know when it started.