I am me, i ain't pretentious no more.
You gotta know me to find it out.
And, music definitely is in me ;)
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My Dream
I would like to travel around the world with a loved one and watch as many sunsets as i can. It would be best if the weather is good and it comes with magnificent sceneries and the sounds of nature. Sometimes, i gotta admit that the sound of nature is euphoric.
I want to stay in a hotel room on the top floor with a full window view of a busking city so that when i look out of the window at night, i see the beautiful lights under the dark quiet sky.
I want to visit Chicago, Cassablanca and Massachusetts.
I heard the western countryside is nice. Its simple but beautiful. Quiet but filled with laughter of the people who are contented with what they have over there.
I want to experience a farm stay. Wake up to the sounds of the farm animals. Bathe horses and milk cows.
I want to see real cowboys and join them for their campfire gathering sessions. As well as sing along to the good old folk songs that they play with their guitars and banjos.
One day, eventually, i believe i will find a guy who will bring me to all these places, experience the life that i've mentioned and maybe more, as well as spend the rest of his life with me till we both turn old and grey. Until then, we will still stroll on the beach hand in hand, as we watch the sun submerge into the vast seas once again.
-Heather :)
I just realised i've successfully resisted the urge to blog for 10 whole days and i see it as a form of achievement!
So i guess this post is gonna be quite a long one.
Well, Sem exams have started. Two papers down, two more to go.
I have been sleeping really little recently because of exams and the feeling is really undesirable. It leaves me with a tired body, not-so-nice skin, puffy eyes, eye bags, dark eye circles and a blue mood :(
Today was EMI exam, and i didn't sleep for the entire night before the exam! I really wonder how i did it. And instead of heading home to bed after the paper, i actually went to watch movie with Ky and Amelia!! :D
I AM NO. FOUR is totally awesome! Anyone suffering from exam stress should catch it. I was freaking tired but i stayed awake throughout the entire movie because i just cant bear to fall asleep and miss out any part of it :)
Many things happened in the past 2 weeks.
But there's no point listing everything out here.
I wonder if i can make it to year two without repeating any modules.
I promise i will work extra extra hard if i ever make it.
If i can't, then i'll probably have to face up to reality and leave.
I know i've been saying this since the mid of semester 1 but i'm really serious this time round.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ The following paragraph is dedicated to my bff aka beloved twin, TIFFANY KOH YUAN EN :) Bitch, i know you will see this, i actually wanted to spam your tagboard but god knows why you removed it! So i'll throw everything here instead :)
I know you're going through a rough patch in your education life right now. I know how it feels when everything goes wrong in school and you find yourself lagging behind others. I know how it feels when you have to force yourself to study things that you have no interest in and end up getting shit grades. Trust me, i know, i experienced it before too. I cried, and cried again because i felt lost and nobody could help me except myself. I look at my grades and i swear i felt like banging my head against the wall because the grades were a far cry from what i usually get in Secondary school. I almost gave up. But believe me, if you put in just a little bit more of effort, and you think of the people around you, those who really want you to do well and those you feel you have to do well for, you will be able to make it. More than half a year ago, I thought i was a goner. But see? I made it up till today. Though i've not thoroughly completed year 1, at least i made it past semester 1, which initially i thought i wouldnt. So my point is, dont give up yet. At least not now. Just for this period of time, give it your best shot. If you've tried your best and still feel that this isnt what you want, then try another path, alright? I'm sure by then your mum will understand and support you. Don't worry, if she doesnt, i will nag at her and keep psycho-ing her until she agrees with me!! :) I just want you to know that even if all your friends walked out on you, you still have me. If you need any help, i'm just 8 numbers away. I can do away with sleep just for you, like how i dont sleep when i have exams! I'll support you in anything you do (except for tattoos) :) I know this is not at all easy. But for the sake of yourself and for those who really care, its definitely worth it. Let's work hard together okay?? ^.^ ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I'm having mixed feelings right now. I'm not sure if i made a right decision in telling them about how i feel.
I'm just afraid word might get out, and i end up being shunned.
I really don't hold any hopes about it. I just want to keep it in my heart because i know nothing will come out of it. Its impossible.
Seriously, i don't even know when it started.
I went bloghopping and i realised there's quite a big difference between a lady's blog and a guy's blog. Its not about the appearance, its about how both genders express themselves.
Hohohohohoho im so observant right?? Ok i was just bored from all the revision :(
I miss LITERATURE. If only there's a module on Literature in DFST. I think i'll ace it. :D
I thought about this. If i have the time and money, i'll do my A levels after i complete this course and then i'll do a major in Engliash Literature. Ok i know im dreaming and talking nonsense. Fml.
Semestral exams is in a week's time.
OMG T.T
I myself know, im not good enough.
I'll stop thinking about it.
Alright, this week had been a really busy week, like totally hectic.
Spent almost the whole week preparing for CRS presentation. Asked john, daniel, reshmi, tiara and xinyi to act for our video and i swear johnathan and daniel's part is darn funny! All of us laughed like crazy during the filming. I cant wait to see how people will react when we show them our video. I hope they wont laugh at my part because i really think i resemble a ding dong :D
Spent the whole day out yesterday. Only went to school for 2 hours for rwp lesson and after that, went to Cathay's Astons for lunch with ky, ht, yx, xy, pearlyn, gw, daniel, tiara, dexuan and david.
Tiara and dx left after lunch.
Next was Ky's house. Gambled and i won 30 cents after playing for almost 2 hours -.-
Then it was dinner at xinyi's house. We really had a lot of fun at xinyi's house!
Ok first, we were given angpaos, then we were fed with lots of food by her mum :D
Then her dad kept giving us carlsberg LOL.
Ht and pearlyn left after dinner. After dinner was all the way games and forfeits :D
Dino's sense of rhythm is really bad!! And i have really slow reaction when it comes to playing heart attack-.-
Daniel and gw are good at games. They didn't lose at all but still had to do forfeits with us girls when we lose because the forfeit is always a boy-girl thing. Hahahahahahaha ^^
And david kissed xinyi's dog!!! =P
Played till around 10pm, then decided to stop all the brain-racking games and change to truth or dare instead. But yea, it ended up in an all-truths session and we started gossipping!! Oh no, we didn't gossip. We just discussed :) And we promised to keep everything to ourselves. If anyone's gonna say anything out, i'll shave that person bald!! Hahahahahaha :D
We left xinyi's house at 11 plus cos had to catch the last train home. And for once im so glad that i stay along the purple line because i live only 3 stops away from xinyi's house!! ^.^
We had alot of fun and i really laughed so much until i think i lost weight. But i think Dino laughed more :D
Thanks guys for all the FUN!!!! :) :) :)
I wanna add, Ky and i enjoy pulling each other's hair when we have 'cat fghts'. But of course everytime also she win because she taller than me!! NOT FAIR.
I'm suffering from hormonal imbalance and im not kidding. Damn it, its turning my body system upside down
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I'm so glad that i passed PHYSICS retest!! I scored 18/50 for mst and today, TSS told me i scored 30plus for the retest!! Thats like almost twice of what i got for mst!! I'm so glad that KY passed it this time round too!! Omg im so happy ^^ Quick, ask me for ice cream. I might just pull you to the fridge and ask you to grab anything you want and i'll pay for it!! :D And i passed Mathcad too!!
Ok, which means so far in this semester, i didn't fail anything at all. But i still have to work really hard for end semester exams. Thats the final big game.
There's Chem test on Thurs, hope i wont buang it but i think i will. Because its tested on chapters 5 to 11 and im still stuck at tutorial 8.
Sugar passed away yesterday morning. When i recieved the message from dad, i didn't know how to reply so i just put it off. Sugar is not exactly my dog. Its granny's dog. I was 4 years old when she bought her and i wsa there. I still remembered it was at the old marina square. Sugar is 14 this year. Which means i spent 14 years of my life with her. Not everyday, but frequently. The last time i saw her was on the first day of cny when i was at granny's house. I don't know why but at that time, i had this feeling that it would be my last time seeing her and true enough, it was. I was gently stroking her head as she laid in her basket. She looked so weak and in pain. Her body was bloated because she had urinary track infection and she can't pass out the liquid in her body. In short, she was just.....dying. It really hurts to see her suffer and i guess its a good thing that she finally died in her sleep, which puts an end to her suffering.
I know Granny's really sad. Before new year, Lisa died. And now, its sugar's turn.
She'll have no one to accompany her anymore when she's alone at home. I think i'll go over to her place more often from now on.
And this makes me wonder how im gonna continue living my life if my luckyboy pass away. He has been with me since i was 10 and everyday when i get home, he'll be there to greet me. When im in the toilet, he sits and waits for me outside the toilet door. He's the first one i see every morning when i wake up. He follows me around the house and when im alone at home, i dont feel lonely because i have him as company. Sometimes at night, when i need the toilet but im scared to walk to the toilet in the dark, i'll wake him up and he'll walk me to the toilet. When i eat, he sits beside me and waits for me to give him treats. When i lie down on the floor, he will come to me and snuggle with me. When i went to Europe for 10 days, dad told me he slept infront of the door every night, waiting for me to come home. For 8 whole years, it has been like this.
So i dont know how i'll be able to adapt to life without him. I think the day he leaves me, i'll cry till i flood my whole house.
Ok, i just saw a programme on babies and i really miss babysitting at mum's childcare centre. I remembered how i love going over there during the holidays to help out with the playgroup and nursery 1 kids. Bathe them, feed them, make milk for them, change their diapers, coax them to sleep and playing with them!! It just feels great when the kids love you and when they see you, all of them will shout "jie jie, jie jie!!" This really puts a smile on my face! :)
I have a feeling im gonna be a very good mummy next time. Haha ^^
But now, i dont have the time to do all these. School is taking up so much of my time.
So yea, hope this holiday i'll have some free time besides working so i can go over and babysit babies again!! :D
I need someone. I just need a shoulder to rest on.
Sunday, February 06, 2011 @ 10:54 PM
Just came back from Tiffany's house. Had steamboat dinner with her family and her bro is darn funny lol.
Tiffany is steamboat champion!! I lost to her T.T
Well, so far, cny is....like that. I don't know how to describe it but nothing special happened. Its the same as every other year. But this year, i prayed more than 3 times for the same thing, but i doubt god heard me.
Ok, I really need to start studying. I know my grades are not really that good and i have to buck up. But i can't seem to focus!! I seriously need someone to sit down with me and MAKE ME STUDY.
I watched a horror movie last night and the title is THE HAUNTED SCHOOL. The storyline is great and the whole movie is great but its was really scary!! I was so scared after watching it that i slept in the same position the whole night until i woke up in the morning and my whole body was aching. Then i had to take the lift down from Tiffany's house and i was freaking scared because i was alone in the life and it was dark and worst of all, the lift stopped at the 2nd level and there was no one there!! I swear i would have cried if the lift ride lasted for another 10 seconds or more.
I need more courage. I need to stop being scared of things like insects. I've concluded on something and that is, whoever eliminates insects for me will be my hero!! My dad is 1st on the list, followed by my bro. Who wants to be next?? ^^
I dont understand how people can watch horror movies alone. The day i manage to do that is the day i attain immortality. And come to think of it, i wonder how i actually managed to survive that halloween night with huiting, dino and guowei. LOL.
I've done quite a number of covers but i dont have the courage to post them up in public.
FML
I know, things are not the same now. But maybe, just maybe, if things didn't turn out this way, if you were able to put more thought into the matter, if you had persisted with trust, we might be happier people today. I swore upon my heart, i won't give in, i won't put my head down. And you should know that there's a reason for all this and why up till today, i still choose not to admit defeat. And i believed i've told you the reason before. I touched my heart and asked myself, and the truth is, i've never went back on my word.
Before you start reading my posts, do the following:
1)Scroll down to the ipod and click on the 'pause' button.
2)Click on the play button of this youtube video.
3)Listen :)
4)Continue reading ^^
This song is classic :)
I just love 5566!!! I really hope they'll come here for another concert. Their songs are awesome and their shows are nice and the programmes they host are entertaining. In short, they're fantastic =)
Why don't i have friends who like 5566?? I have no one to sing their songs with me because no one knows their songs anymore. :(
I wanna go Jacky Cheung's concert, which is in August. I gotta start saving up for concert tickets.
Anyway, there's no school today! ^^
Nothing to do, so went out with Ky and Johnathan to Orchard area. But Ky ps-ed us after an hour plus!
Then went to simlim square with john to get some stuff. I swear he's damn funny and idotic but more of the idotic side. One day i'm gonna make him call me GOD and shut up :D
Alright, i'm going out again soon to meet Tiffany.
I can't believe CNY is 2 days away. Im just so not in the festive mood., I prefer Christmas.
Ok, i'll update when i get back. Ciaos :)
Why? I don't understand. Is it really so difficult?
