Heather Lee
My Dream
I would like to travel around the world with a loved one and watch as many sunsets as i can. It would be best if the weather is good and it comes with magnificent sceneries and the sounds of nature. Sometimes, i gotta admit that the sound of nature is euphoric.
I want to stay in a hotel room on the top floor with a full window view of a busking city so that when i look out of the window at night, i see the beautiful lights under the dark quiet sky.
I want to visit Chicago, Cassablanca and Massachusetts.
I heard the western countryside is nice. Its simple but beautiful. Quiet but filled with laughter of the people who are contented with what they have over there.
I want to experience a farm stay. Wake up to the sounds of the farm animals. Bathe horses and milk cows.
I want to see real cowboys and join them for their campfire gathering sessions. As well as sing along to the good old folk songs that they play with their guitars and banjos.
One day, eventually, i believe i will find a guy who will bring me to all these places, experience the life that i've mentioned and maybe more, as well as spend the rest of his life with me till we both turn old and grey. Until then, we will still stroll on the beach hand in hand, as we watch the sun submerge into the vast seas once again.
-Heather :)
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My heart feels very, very heavy... Its like a heavy load on my chest...
Tuesday, September 14, 2010 @ 12:36 AM
MIP is passable, i hope :)
Kbox with Eileen was funnnnnn :D Kept doing recordings like free, LOL.
And that woman is really damn noisy, it's like as if she will die if she's not noisy.
I'm sick and tired of all these nonsense, i really am.
I really wish i don't need to care, but i can't.
All this while, i have been keeping quiet, not complaining about a single thing, keeping everything inside me, because i know they don't feel good about it too.
I act all happy and smiles, because i don't want them to be worried, i don't want them to feel bad.
But deep inside, do you know how i'm feeling? I feel so surpressed, its like i can't breathe.
They think i'm managing it well, because i put on a brave front infront of them, but in fact i'm not as strong as they think. There are times when i do need support.
I'm just a girl, i get very afraid, frustrated and sad. I have a weak side too.
Its not that i don't cry, its just that i never gave them a chance to see my tears, because i know, if they ever see them, they'll feel even worse. I have to keep things going well, or at least keep things going as it is now and not something that is any worse than this.
There are times when i feel that i'm taken for granted, but i don't voice it out. This may be something good, because it means i don't give or cause them trouble, i can manage well on my own, thus i don't need as much attention.
There are alot of things that i don't mind with if those are what it takes to make everyone happy. Just like how i've been deprived of certain things all this while but never complainng, because through all these, i have learnt to be contented with the little things that i have.
There are times when i really wanna shout everything out, but i keep it in for everyone's sake because i don't want to worsen the situation.
To tell the truth, sometimes, just sometimes, i'd rather not know anything, so that i'll be rid of all these problems.
Everyone has problems, but why is mine so unique? So unique till i'm finding it hard to cope with.
I'm struggling with everything because i love them very much, they have given me everything that i need to become what i am today. Without them, life has got no meaning. I'm glad that we still stand as one :)
I've never talked about it because i doubt anyone will understand, and worse, they'll spread it around.
I may seem to be laughing, joking. But no one knows, i'm actually screaming inside.
I really feel like crying out loud now. Yeah, a contradiction to Laughing Out Loud.
I'm not complaining, i just need to let some things out before i really explode inside. In fact, i'm losing it soon.