I am me, i ain't pretentious no more.
You gotta know me to find it out.
And, music definitely is in me ;)
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My Dream
I would like to travel around the world with a loved one and watch as many sunsets as i can. It would be best if the weather is good and it comes with magnificent sceneries and the sounds of nature. Sometimes, i gotta admit that the sound of nature is euphoric.
I want to stay in a hotel room on the top floor with a full window view of a busking city so that when i look out of the window at night, i see the beautiful lights under the dark quiet sky.
I want to visit Chicago, Cassablanca and Massachusetts.
I heard the western countryside is nice. Its simple but beautiful. Quiet but filled with laughter of the people who are contented with what they have over there.
I want to experience a farm stay. Wake up to the sounds of the farm animals. Bathe horses and milk cows.
I want to see real cowboys and join them for their campfire gathering sessions. As well as sing along to the good old folk songs that they play with their guitars and banjos.
One day, eventually, i believe i will find a guy who will bring me to all these places, experience the life that i've mentioned and maybe more, as well as spend the rest of his life with me till we both turn old and grey. Until then, we will still stroll on the beach hand in hand, as we watch the sun submerge into the vast seas once again.
-Heather :)
TFL Koh En En, i don't care if we're world aparts. I don't think we're world aparts, but even if we are, I DON'T CARE. You don't have to be bothered by what happened yesterday. Everyone is good at different things. True friends dont come by easily, and when they do, they don't care about the differences. I don't care, we said before, we'll last till we count up to the 1000000000000000000000th day, so you cannot break your promise. You have to pass this round. You can and you WILL. See my previous post? I'm also going through something that's very difficult for me. But i'll fight on. So you have to too! I know its hard, i know its not easy, but promise me you won't give up ok?? :) :) :)
Life has been rather busy lately. Everyday is filled with something. So its only until now that i have the time to actually sit down and blog :)
So, work has ended for the week. I can say that this job ain't very interesting, but trust me, its really easy money. And i have to confess about something. I'm starting to fall in love with Phillipino guys after working there!!!! Omg, kill me. I think i'm going crazy.
But seriously, i think they're nice, friendly, caring and humorous! I like the TL Deetoh. He lent me his personal locker to use, he taught me what to do, he didn't ignore me or give me the irritated attitude like the others when i asked for his help, and he's damn funny! On the first day, he didn't know my name, so he called me Miss Kotex!! Hahahahahhahahahaha :D
Luckily there was also another phillipino staff, Hui fang and auntie Fiona, who helped me and entertained me at times :)
Today, woke up bright and early, went all the way to chinatown to buy roast duck and TongHeng eggtart for my beloved granny mama :)
Waited for damn long for the food to be ready because dad and i were there too early. But nvm, its worth it because the food is fresh :D
Then went all the way back to mama's house, ate lunch together with her and uncle lawrence. Ah~~~~I like this kind of family dinner :D A pity Sean came late and Mum couldn't make it because of work, if not everybody can eat together.
And omg, i like uncle Lawrence!! I swear if he's 30 years younger i'm gonna fall head over heels in love with him~~ "D
Ok, stop dreaming. Anyw, he's really funny and nice. And he disturbed sean when he came late.
After that, met up with Tiffany, Andy and QuanHua at KBOX.
Sang till 7 plus. Quan hua has a deep deep voice, he thinks his own voice not nice, but i think very nice!! Just have to train a little.
Next was dinner and crap at Hougang Mall :D Andy brought out his Maths prelim paper and asked us to solve it for him. Quan hua and i were thinking and thinking and thinking. And aha! I managed to get the answer faster than him!!! Yay :D
And now here i am, home sweet home :)
Mama told me alot of things today, and she has a wish. I'm gonna help her fulfil this wish.
Not only her, but for uncle lawrence and my own family too. I'm the fastest hope now. I'm capable of getting things done. So, i've decided. No matter how hard things are, i'll carry on with it. Even if it means i'll have to struggle, i WILL. Because its for the sake of everyone :) Jiayou Jiayou Jiayou!
Omg, hi :)
I can't believe i'm updating my blog at this time of the day.
I was woken up by my dog at 6am. He was barking like a mad dog, and then i can't get back to sleep -.-
So, here i am :)
Last Sunday, went kite festival with mc, but there wasn't anything much and there were lots of people there.
After that trained to airport to meet Koh En En, was slacking around when suddenly we had the urge to go kbox. Contacted Andy, Isaac and Quan Hua, but only Andy could make it, so en en and i bused all the way back to Hougang just for kbox. So yeah, we went airport for nothing!
Sang till 2am, took our own sweet time to walk home :)
I'm still holding hopes for the Genting trip, if Quan hua can make it, then most probably we'll be pulling Isaac and Jeremy along since Andy can't make it because he has O levels.
If not, then it'll be ER REN SHI JIE for me and Koh En En again! Omg, i miss the hotel and the food there. Koh En En, this time if we go, i want both beds, then you sleep in the bathtub ok? Don't say i bad la, i give you one pillow and a towel for your blanket ^^
I finished watching Lavender already, and i cried like a retard while watching it.
But its a really nice show with lots of meaning. And the songs are beautiful.
I think i'm quite slow, i watched the show only 8 years after it has been released -.-
Saw it quite a few times in CD shops, but i thought it was boring so i didn't bother to watch. But i was wrong! I should go bang my head against the wall :)
I just realised the feeling's not there... I really tried, but i don't feel a thing.
Maybe its me,Maybe its because i've not let go of some things yet.
Or maybe i'm just not ready. So yea... friends for now :)
I just realised there's so much more to what i already know :)
Saturday, September 18, 2010 @ 3:20 PM
SEMESTRAL EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!! :D
Yay, like finally! So yesterday was the last paper, CPP! all i can say that i'm a goner at this module. After i finished writing all the answers and looked through them, i actually felt like laughing because everything that i've written down looks like nothing but gibberish.
But its over anyway :)
After the paper went to bugis with xinyi for some job briefing and i just found out that its some scam, ok not really scam but it isnt as good as what they told us. 10-16 hours per week pays you $300 or more. If its you, i also don't think you'll believe it right?
THEN THEN THEN
Twin suddenly called me to ask whether wanna go watch midnight movie with quan hua and andy or not. I just reached home at the time she called me, which was close to 10pm? LOL, didnt want to watch movie, but in the end their plans changed and decided to just go hougang mall to slack, so i went out of my house once again. Met them at mac, chit chatted for about an hour. Oh, i finally tried cinnamon melts, cos quan hua bought it and he gave me a piece of it. Seriously, i dont think its nice?
And i think quan hua is a potential comedian. He really very the funny and the reactions that he gave andy was superb. Like "where you get your straw from?!" Omg funny die :D
Then went to 24 hours ntuc to buy candles and fireworks and walked over to the void deck opposite my house to play. We were burning candles and fireworks, singing songs and chit chatting at the same time. Talked about alot of things, like future plans and stuffs, and quanhua seriously look like some japanese kid! Planning genting trip, we really hope ots possible for the 4 of us, then its gonna be so fun!
The exercise playground was also fun, andy and quan hua were challenging pull ups. Tiffany and i can only hang there. Hahhaa! :D
Played till 4am, then walked back to hougang mall to eat supper cum breakfast.
And i reached home at 5am. I feel like a zombie now.
I wanna watch lavender. I keep singing the song but i havent watched it, Twin, you wanna lend me the disc?? :)
My heart feels very, very heavy... Its like a heavy load on my chest...
Tuesday, September 14, 2010 @ 12:36 AM
MIP is passable, i hope :)
Kbox with Eileen was funnnnnn :D Kept doing recordings like free, LOL.
And that woman is really damn noisy, it's like as if she will die if she's not noisy.
I'm sick and tired of all these nonsense, i really am. I really wish i don't need to care, but i can't. All this while, i have been keeping quiet, not complaining about a single thing, keeping everything inside me, because i know they don't feel good about it too. I act all happy and smiles, because i don't want them to be worried, i don't want them to feel bad. But deep inside, do you know how i'm feeling? I feel so surpressed, its like i can't breathe. They think i'm managing it well, because i put on a brave front infront of them, but in fact i'm not as strong as they think. There are times when i do need support. I'm just a girl, i get very afraid, frustrated and sad. I have a weak side too. Its not that i don't cry, its just that i never gave them a chance to see my tears, because i know, if they ever see them, they'll feel even worse. I have to keep things going well, or at least keep things going as it is now and not something that is any worse than this. There are times when i feel that i'm taken for granted, but i don't voice it out. This may be something good, because it means i don't give or cause them trouble, i can manage well on my own, thus i don't need as much attention. There are alot of things that i don't mind with if those are what it takes to make everyone happy. Just like how i've been deprived of certain things all this while but never complainng, because through all these, i have learnt to be contented with the little things that i have. There are times when i really wanna shout everything out, but i keep it in for everyone's sake because i don't want to worsen the situation. To tell the truth, sometimes, just sometimes, i'd rather not know anything, so that i'll be rid of all these problems. Everyone has problems, but why is mine so unique? So unique till i'm finding it hard to cope with. I'm struggling with everything because i love them very much, they have given me everything that i need to become what i am today. Without them, life has got no meaning. I'm glad that we still stand as one :)
I've never talked about it because i doubt anyone will understand, and worse, they'll spread it around. I may seem to be laughing, joking. But no one knows, i'm actually screaming inside. I really feel like crying out loud now. Yeah, a contradiction to Laughing Out Loud.
I'm not complaining, i just need to let some things out before i really explode inside. In fact, i'm losing it soon.
I treasure evrything i have now because i don't know when i;m gonna lose them :)
Saturday, September 11, 2010 @ 9:40 PM
THIS POST IS GONNA BE SPECIALLY FOR MY TIFFANY KOH YUEN EN WITH ALL MY HEART :)
I saw this on her blog :
My dear twin likes to call me Lee MinMin instead of HEATHER now. Make me sound so juvenile and child-like. But, i like :)
TFL Koh En En, I swear i was super touched when i saw what you posted on your blog, one whole post just for me. <3
Yeah i also have no idea why i hated you so much in the past. And thinking back of it makes me feel so stupid. But you know how much i love you now right? :)
Thanks for always being there for me, and tolerating my nonsense. I know i can be a bitch at times when my mood is down or when i'm frustrated with some things. Thank you for all the support and encouragement that you have given me all this while :)
I like how we can talk about anything under the sun. I know my cup size bigger than yours but you also don't sad ok? Next time if technology allows, i'll pass some of mine over to you because we share everything:) Oh but one thing, i won't share my boyfriend or husband with you! But i think you also won't like the type i like, because our taste different :)
I think among everyone i know, you're the one that understands me best. I know i can trust you and i will continue to trust you :) I love you very the much and i really mean very the much.
But my dear, do you know its very mean of you to want to PUSH ME DOWN THE CHAIR and laugh at me until you cry again? You know that time i fall on my butt very painful leh! You still can laugh until the whole building like shaking. And you make me laugh at myself also! Haha :D Next time, it'll be my turn to push you down the stone chair ok! :)
Omg, i miss you so much. Its been like a week since i saw you and i have tonnes of things to tell you! Without you is like...eating green tea ice cream without the green tea flavour and you know how much i love green tea ice cream. Oh hi, i want green tea pls~ :)
And, i hope we'll find good husbands so we don't need to complain to each other about them. Hey i just thought of something! Maybe our children can get married, then we'll become in laws! So cool right~ :D
I still have alot of things to tell you but i tell you in private ok? I shy to type out here. My blog is public, not like yours private! I'm so sorry i pasted your whole paragraph on my own blog without asking you first. But i really want it on my blog. If you don't like then you tell me ok? I'll remove :)
Twin, i wanna go Hong Kong with you also! One day we'll go there and have fun until we happy then come back ok ok ok? :D
I hope nothing goes wrong between us, then we can be as close as now till forever. We will right? :)
Maths and Chemistry paper is over, i wanna eat green tea ice cream (:
I'm left with MIP and CPP, i wanna bang the wall :(
I wanna see snow and i wanna touch snow. I think snow is beautiful (:
I wanna go overseas and see the sunset.
I miss the sunset in Venice.
I miss the moon rise in Munich.
I miss the beautiful sceneries in Europe.
Anybody want to bring me overseas?? :)
I DON'T HAVE A BOYFRIEND, SO DON'T THINK ANYHOW AND SAY NONSENSE :D
Hmmmm....
Tiffany koh en en, you wanna go for sex change and be my boyfriend??
Hahahahahahahahahahahha! <3 :D
Or you give me your heart can already, because i dont care for looks or money. I only care for the heart and character :D So you dig out your heart and give it to me okokokokok? :)
Hi, omg.
Oh yes, i posted this on facebook, and i like it very much :)
Its real life encounter ok! Someone really did ask me this question.
She asked: Would you rather choose a guy thats filthy rich but doesn't love you, or would you rather choose a guy who's dirt poor but loves you wholeheartedly?
I replied: I'll choose the dirt poor guy (: She said: Omg why?! I answered: Because I'm not as shallow as you. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! :D
I mean, really right? Why would you choose money over love? I won't.
Ok maybe some people will, like how some 20 year old girls can declare their love for some old man whose age is thrice of theirs, then get married to them. Even blind idiots know that they're doing it for the sake of money.
Imagine going to bed with an old man who probably don't have enough energy to activate that part of their body to do it with you. Maybe viagra won't even work. OHMYGOD.
I shall stop here if not its gonna become a sex paragraph. LOL.
You've got my point right? :D
I WANNA HAVE FUN.
FUN, where are you??
Omg, hi, i think im going crazy. Save me!!
WAhahahahahahah.
I think i've contracted the mad clown virus. Is there a cure or vaccination for it??
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
I'm very very unsure of something.
OK BYE, SEE YOU NEXT TIME.
Hi (:
Its been quite a few days since i last blogged. I have many many things to say, but i don't know why i always end up blogging lesser then what i intend to. I keep pressing on the backspace button. -.-
Anyway, MATHS exam is tomorrow! Oh my gosh, someone tell me what i should do please. I really studied, but i know chances of passing it is less than 10%, which means there is a 90% chance that i'll have to repeeat this module. And like yeah, not to mention CPP.
I miss studying English, Literature, Chinese and Social studies. Subjects that involve no numbers, and i can just write on and on and on and my end product will be something that i'll be very proud of. I miss doing essays, writing about all sorts of things, from the weather to stories of my life. It is through these essays that i show my feelings. Literature teaches me to think more in depth, to look beyond what you see on the surface. Sometimes, what you see may not be the truth, and the truth you may not see. Its really totally different from the stuffs i'm learning now.
But still, i really wanna continue with what i'm learning now, because i really like it and it interests me. If only i could conquer numbers, then everything will be a happy ending. For i really don't want to leave.
I will try my best, i will change my mentality and mindset. :)
But whether i can do it or not, is another story.
Pearlyn sent me a message yesterday out of the blue. And when i saw it, i couldn't help but smile (:
Thanks girl! :D
I've figured that life ain't easy. Things don't go your way most of the time unless you're born with a silver spoon in your mouth and that spoon stays in your mouth for your whole life. We have to learn to give and take, overcome obstacles.
So instead of brooding over that idiotic problem, i'll focus on other things for the time being. No doubt there'll be more restrictions to my daily life now, but i'll learn to handle it. (:
If you see me emo-ing, smack me! Ok no you shouldn't, because i'll definitely smack you back, so, er, make a clown or retarded face to make me laugh or smile ok!! :D
Must SMILE! Because you won't know who's gonna be in love with your smile (: Ok, sounds irrelevant i know but yeah, i like it :)))
Alright, thats all for now, i'm off to study already! :D
Twin, good luck for your Ns. Must get through it! Battle with the papers and make sure you win! :D
I'm still waiting for my turn :( When will it be my turn? :(
