I am me, i ain't pretentious no more.
You gotta know me to find it out.
And, music definitely is in me ;)
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My Dream
I would like to travel around the world with a loved one and watch as many sunsets as i can. It would be best if the weather is good and it comes with magnificent sceneries and the sounds of nature. Sometimes, i gotta admit that the sound of nature is euphoric.
I want to stay in a hotel room on the top floor with a full window view of a busking city so that when i look out of the window at night, i see the beautiful lights under the dark quiet sky.
I want to visit Chicago, Cassablanca and Massachusetts.
I heard the western countryside is nice. Its simple but beautiful. Quiet but filled with laughter of the people who are contented with what they have over there.
I want to experience a farm stay. Wake up to the sounds of the farm animals. Bathe horses and milk cows.
I want to see real cowboys and join them for their campfire gathering sessions. As well as sing along to the good old folk songs that they play with their guitars and banjos.
One day, eventually, i believe i will find a guy who will bring me to all these places, experience the life that i've mentioned and maybe more, as well as spend the rest of his life with me till we both turn old and grey. Until then, we will still stroll on the beach hand in hand, as we watch the sun submerge into the vast seas once again.
-Heather :)
I suddenly have the urge to cry. I don't know why. It sounds stupid. And my sentences look stupid because they're like broken. The wires in my brain are broken. I miss talking like no one cares. I miss having fun. I need to get into someone's world. Someone needs to get into my world. Someone lend me a shoulder pls? I don't know what i'm talking about. Maybe you can figure it out.
I went out with that 3 women again today (:
Met at 7am at Mac to have breakfast and study!
And yes, finally i did something productive. I studied maths and i understood further trigo. Thanks to Gina and Xinqi! Eileen was emo-ing beside me, studying her soil science.
I took quite a long time to understand something that was downright simple to them. Ok i know i'm slow when it comes to formulas and calculation la. But hey i'm trying my best ok! I still have a long long way to go, and i'm really afraid that i'll lose it halfway, or maybe even somewhere earlier than that.
So we studied till 11 plus, and we got distracted and started chit chatting. :)
Decided we couldn't study anymore, so we left Mac at around 12 plus and went for lunch. After that, we went to Xinqi's house to slack. Was damn high at first, played street fighter and we couldnt stop laughing and shouting. And i play until my fingers almost cramped cos i kept spamming the buttons because i didnt know which button is which power :D
Then we watched movie. Scooby doo! Very funny, but i fell asleep. And then suddenly the tv BOOM, and i woke up. Eileen slept like a pig on the sofa! :)
We're supposed to go fly kite tmr, but that pig say she lazy go out, wanna stay at home. And Xinqi's kite very small. So yeah, in the end i still don't get to fly my kite and see the sunset :(
Anyone wants to go with me to fly a kite?
I miss school, school is funnnnnn!!! :D
I really don't know what to do. Its not like i'm not trying, but i just don't get it. When people tell me its common sense, you know how stupid i felt? So are they trying to imply that i don't have any common sense? Those questions, i swear everytime i look at them i'll feel intimidated. I try doing it, but i get stucked halfway. I wanna ask the people beside me, but i'm afraid to disturb them. And when i do ask, i'll feel like a total fool because to them its common sense. And i don't think anyone has the patience to teach me until i really do understand it. So in the end i'll end up stoning, and then some moronic idiot will think that i'm not trying and just wasting my time away. How bout you give me an essay title? I promise i won't be stoning and i'll hand it up with all my pride. So yeah, what should i do? If people are capable of getting full marks and i'm getting a single digit or a mere pass, what else can i say besides i'm stupid? I only manage 2 modules well, yeah whats the point.. Maybe in the first place, i shouldn't have chosen this course. But this is where my interest lies since 2 years ago. I can only blame myself for being good at words but not numbers. Now i wanna leave, i can't bear to. But maybe i really should leave, to some course that i'll excel but have no interest in.
And recently, life isn't going quite well for me. I have this BIG problem i can't solve, its bugging me alot but i can't tell anyone. I'm actually thinking of something, but i know they won't allow me to do it. So in conclusion, i should just bang the wall and die.
I'm gonna start this post off by saying that I LOVE THE AIRPORT!! :D
Its my favourite place in Singapore. Though there's literally nothing to do there, i just love being there. I can stay there for hours just doing nothing. It brings back beautiful memories, and i get to see aeroplanes take off, bringing people back to their warm homes, or to places where they would enjoy themselves:)Many a times, i wish that my family and i were the ones in the planes, flying back to where we are supposed to be.
And just yesterday, i went to the airport with my dearest friends! Eileen, xinqi and gina :)
We met on the bus in the morning, and made our way there. Settled at Mac for lunch, and i think we sat there for more than 3 hours talking, talking and talking. I don't know why but topics seem to be never ending when i'm with Eileen. When i'm alone with her, we will talk alot, with other people around, we will also talk alot. So in conclusion, i can talk to her about anything under the sun. Just like my twin tiffany!!! Hahahahahahaha :D
Anyw, we were crapping in Mac, and tried to organise our chalet. Oh my, i'm so looking forward to it! Faster get over with the exams and im gonna have FUNNNNN!!! :D
After lunch, we walked around the airport, and went to a corner where we could see the aeroplanes and camwhored there. Took many many photos and some looked really funny and unglam, but dont care la, we happy can alr :)
Sat there for quite awhile, then gina had to leave for cca. So the 3 of us went to Astons for dinner. After dinner we took the bus home cos whole day very high, very tired alr. LOL...
On the bus, xinqi fell asleep, so eileen and i were chatting and chatting non stop again. :D
Best friend Eileen Koh Hui Ling 亲爱的!!
Remember last time we dedicated one blog post to each other? Now i dedicate song to you! See i love you so much right?? :D I think this song very meaningful, but in cantonese. But nvm, you so smart, confirm understand one :)
The lyrics:
记得当天一起唱着告别校园时那些愉快动人琴声
仍像奏到面前 让我轻闭眼睛
记住同学每张脸 这感觉 仿佛更新鲜
这天翻开这本记念册再想到你 小心用胶纸封了表 来让我更希冀
若照片有日褪色 你在文字里给我 好天气 应该也很美
曾共你天天相对 失恋也一起 共你担心功课 赶不到限期
班房里放影机 逐格愉快记忆 在倒退 让我看真你
明日我翻开笔记 即使记不起 学过数理经济 通通都抛弃
一想到你笔迹 或满载我记忆 在心里没有忘掉你 得到过 我心中有你
若有一天翻开记念册 你可会笑 有些造作一点句子 其实心丝不小 My pen is blue, my friend is you. 今天再看 也可使我微笑 :) :) :)
Eileen koh, friday go fly kite and see sunset ok ok ok???!!!! The last time i flew a kite was 3 years ago with ahem ahem you know who, this time i fly with you. Must romantic ah! :D
Twin, its our 200th day!!!! Omg, Hi :) Ok, yes we'll reach the 10000th day together if not you will murder me as you've said in your blog. I love you many many too!!! See i so nice right?? You say i GL, i still say i love you. :D Eh, where's my anniversary gift?? :D
Hi, my name is Heather. :)
Ok, i know im being lame. Can't be helped. I'm mixing around with mad, lame and retarded pple almost everyday. So i'm somehow influenced already :D
I'll blog about last monday.
Went out with Eve, Rachel and aunty Wendy.
Met up in the morning, then we sat at Macdonalds to talk talk talk talk. Talk about alot of things. I love going out with them. Because of the age gap, i learn alot of things about life from them. But its a good thing we can click well. Its either they are young at heart, or im old at heart. But i dont wanna sound old, so i shall say that its because they are young at heart :D
Then we went to eat dessert and continue talking. Talk until 2pm, then went to Kbox!
Sang alot of freaking old songs with aunty Wendy. Like those really old ones from 1980s. LOL.
Eve and Rachel are like 1 cycle older then me but they dont know the songs, so they keep laughing at me! Then Eve said: Aiyo Heather ah! Ni you chang zhe zhong lao ge! Hahahahahhahhaa :D
After Kbox, went to Kovan for dinner. Before that, went up to the Gift a Name upstairs to see who was working, so we all can go in and kaypo kaypo. Then saw Aunty Rose there. Woo! She's so cute when Wendy was telling her about her current job. Mingled and chit chat for awhile, then off to dinner. Fish head steamboat :D
Yesterday was CIP. I must say that it wasn't really that fun. FUNDRAISING isn't my cup of tea. I'd rather serve old folks or take care of children.
Anyway, we were supposed to collect donations and thumbprints. Two to a tin. I paired with GW, but we weren't very productive, cos we both thin skinned and shy. LOL.
Then yx and ht damn pro! So we split. I pair with ht, then gw with yx. Ky paired with Pearl, but that gem stone left early, so ky joined us :)
Went to the hawker centres, then ht asked the people for donations, i only hold the tin and back up answers. When pple ask what is it for and from which organisation, then i will open my golden mouth and give them a very good and detailed explanation. Haha :D
Moved on to DBG, then from there we walked to bugis, then to the Guanyin Temple.
Was left alone for awhile cos they wanted to watch movie and i didn't want to. So i went to pay RouQing a visit :)
Then ht called and said they not watching movie alr, so went to meet them back, and not long after the person called and asked us to go to outram park to collect our dinner.
Trained back to boonkeng to eat, then we slacked all the way. It was like 3 hours plus. Called Xinyi to join us, then she brought board games down. Played monopoly at the void deck, and xinyi and I kept singing :D We should really go kbox together because our genre of songs really the same. We are LAO GE PAI :D
Then i wanted to see xinyi's dog, so i accompanied back home to bring her dog down.
Fooled around for a little while more, and off we went back to the place to report sign out.
It was 9 plus by then. And im only 4 stops away from home. The rest have to travel for almost 1 hour to get home! Heheheheheheh. Now they know what its like for me and pearl to get to school from hougang to dover that area! :D
Holidays have started!
I have a few things to blog about.
Last Monday
National day, but i spent my whole day out with Eve.
Met up with her at City Hall Mrt station and trained to IMM for her ZHANG YUN JING's autograph session. Went for lunch first, since it was still early. Had Japanese food at some famous Japanese restaurant but i forgot the name already. But the food was superb! Especially the green tea ice cream and the aloe vera lime. But gosh, it was expensive, total bill was about $80. Eve paid for it. Thanks alot!! :D
After that we watched her idol perform and queued up for her autograph. It was HOT, but she was happy just to get the autograph. LOL, so cute right? :D
Wednesday
Went out with Xin Yee, Yu Xiang and Guowei.
Met up with Xin yi first, then we trained to Tiong Bahru together. Met Gw there, and we tried to find our way to the place where we were going to have our porridge buffet. While walking there, Yx caught up with us. Found the place, and settled down to eat. The food there not bad, quite worth eating. (:
Then a lot of funny things happened while we were eating because gw and yx were arguing with each other all the time. Xinyi and I were like watching a live performance. Haha :D
After the buffet we walked around while deciding what to do next cos we needed to wait for Huiting then we can go sign the application form for the job in RWS.
And so we ended up playing pool in Clarke Quay. And oh yes! I saw Tiffany at Clarke Quay! Its so freaking unbelievable! When i saw her i just screamed, then everyone at sticky candy were looking at us. LOL. But who cares, i'm happy to see my twin. Cannot ah? :D
Pool was fun! Then Ht came, joined us for awhile, then we went to sign the form.
Was filling up the application form happily until i heard the job briefing for the previous group. Damn, the stupid job has so many expectations. So ya, count me out. Xin yi and I just tore away the application form. (:
We'd rather work in NTUC.
Yesterday
Went back to school to play pool at Moberly with Lee Guo Wei and Goh Guo Wei. LOL!
My bro actually wore the sp shirt into my school. Had lunch at FC3, then the two guys were talking about maple. -.-
Went to Moberly, played pool from 2-4pm. They good, say i burden, so dont wanna pair with me, walao :(
My skills now not bad already ok?! LOLs.
Then wanted to extend till 5pm,but table booked alr. So went to colours to play board games. The two GWs is super funny, i think both also clown. But Lee is the more gl clown. Played till 6, then decided to go back to moberly to see if there were any tables available.
And yes, they have it. So we started playing again. This time we play 1v1. Bro lost to gw, i also lost to gw. But i win my bro in the first game! :D But after that he win me back la. So it was kinda of a draw.
Gw left, then we continued playing till 8pm, then went home.
Gee, pool is addictive! :D
Yesterday and Thursday was awesome! So i'm gonna blog about it :D
Thursday
No lessons, but still went to school to celebrate mad clown guo wei's early birthday.
Woke up early early in the morning at 7.30 then met YX at clementi to buy cake and get stuffs.
Went to school to prepare the things, met Ky, HT, Mandy and Jie Ing then went to find location and prepare water bombs!
Waited for long for guowei,huihan and matthew to finish their IFS project then we can surprise gw. Early know don't n eed to go so early, cos the cake and us were melting under the sun la.
Then they finally came. It was supposed to be a surprise. But ky gave it away cos she was too tall and cannot be hidden!! Haha :D
Then we played until very dirty. Smashing cream and water on each other. Then that mad clown actually used lemon tea to splash at me!! Huiting got cream all over her hair, yx the face. Im a little bit here and there. But i got lemon tea all over!!
LOL.
Huihan and matthew didn't play. Not sporting one.
After that went to sim lim square to get that stupid cable, and i got lost in Little India cos i didn't dare to ask for directions from the bangalas. =P
Then trained back to hougang, met tiff and andy to get food for bbq.
Friday
Went to school in the morning. Mya cheat our feelings. Told us there was an opened book test on IFS so i lugged my heavy lappy to school. then end up she say she go through it as tutorial with us. WTH!
Then Onow presentation, i think i didn't do a good job. My slides were too little and i didn't really elaborate much.
After school, rushed home to prepare, then i lugged all the food to Tiffany's house. Prepare this prepare that until damn kanjiong cos her mum keep stressing us and we dont have much time left. Actually wanted to wait for quan hua and jeremy to come over then we take cab there together, but they couldnt make it to her house in time so we arranged to meet at pasir ris straight. Then Jeremy was stucked at pasir ris station cos he didnt know how to get to downtown from there. Lol. So i had to go there and fetch him while tiffany and her parents went to set up the pit.
Before everyone came, tiffany, andy, weiping, quan hua, jeremy and i had a lot of fun, it was like our own bbq. Talked and joked around and gl each other, and shoot andy!
Quan hua damn funny. He's a joker. The steel net caught fire and he actually tried to put it out by hitting the things on it! Omg, we laughed until stomach pain! And Jeremy was showing off his chest muscles. Lol.
Then tiffany's friends came, tina also came. And i finally saw Louis!! :D And everyone became very high when we cut the cake.
Tiffany got smashed and splashed!
After cutting the cake alot of people left, only left me, tiff, andy, siona, dion, josephine, conan and his mate.
Dion is damn retarded and funny i swear! He went high on chocolate frappe and he kept doing all the retarded stuffs. And he's super guai lan also.
So we talked and talked and talked and ate until 1am plus and decided to pack up and leave. We looked a the leftover food and thought of how to settle them. In the end we splitted them and brought it home. Omg, first i lugged the raw food back home to prepare, then i lugged it to tiffany's house, then from the bbq i lugged the same food back home again. In the end, it still ended up back to my house. haha!
Waited damn long for a seven seatrer cab, but none was available. Then we tried asking he taxi drivers if they wanted to carry all 5 of us but some of them damn idiotic keep saying no but then still park there and wait for us -.-
Then came an indian taxi driver who agreed! Like phew finally, cos i was really tired. I used up all my energy laughing talking and playing and bbq-ing the food.
Well, it was a fun day out :D
Twin, hope you enjoyed yourself! :D If not all my effort would have gone to waste.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED TIFFANY KOHLEE TFL TWIN!!
School today was normal, MIP and IFS. IFS presentation sucked totally.
I was like...presenting something that i myself was not sure of. But nvm, went through it anyway.
After school went to meet Eve and Rachel at Bugis. Eve wanted to go for the Tokio Hotel's autograph session, so we accompanied her there. Omg, their music is really the banging kind. I can feel my bag and phone vibrating throughout!
Then went over to Bugis street to shop shop, and trained home. And im freaking tired now. So i doubt i can really type much now.
BUT!!!!! I still have something for my twin!!
My beloved twin, this is for you. I know its your favourite song (: Special edition one ok! Cos its specially sung by me. Cannot laugh at my singing ah! :D
Shit blogger! I can't upload the song i wanna upload. Ok, maybe my voice's to horrible so my laptop refuses to allow it to be uploaded. I'm so sorry twin!! I will find a way to get it up here, by hook or by crook. But, i won't be able to get it up by 12am today. SORRY :(
