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I SCREWED UP MY BIO.


Bio paper 4 and chem/bio mcq.
I think i screwed both up.
Regretted not studying, cos the exact same questions were really right infront of me yesterday. I thought the teachers didn't mean it when they said they would test us on the 05 06 o level paper. I was thinking 'where got so good one?spoon feed us with the questions and the answers' so i went to study my notes.
And tada, when i opened the test paper today, i wanted to knock my dumb head on the wall.
Chem mcq too. I don't know what nonsense numbers i shaded on the otas form.
Anyw, its over, i think i won't fail, but will not get a good grade. I'm gonna kena from Mrs Quek very very soon. *sighs*


Sometimes i really wonder what life is all about, and what some people are thinking. Why must things be so complicated? Why can't they be simplified, so everyone can live in peace and harmony without any disputes?
And what are true friends? My earlier definition of true friends was people whom you can trust and confide in, people who won't misplace your trust, people who will stand by you in times of need. They're the ones who will lend you a listening ear when you need one, listen to you crap about your troubles and encourage you even though its none of their business, and they will lend you their shoulder for some support when you feel that life is too overwhelming or meaningless.
But now, i think differently. Yes, its easy to make friends, but its difficult to find true friends. Because i feel that people wear masks once they step out of their houses. On the surface, this person may seem nice, talking to you with a wide smile on his/her face, and agreeing with everything you say. But deep beneath, who knows what he/she is thinking? For all you know, he/she might just be entertaining you to gain your trust so that he/she can somehow gain benefits from you in time to come.
Everyone is selfish. Admit it, no one is totally selfless.
Ever heard of this saying? 人不为己，天诛地灭.

I used to belive in true friends.
I thought they were people whom i could trust my secrets and problems with.
And i swear that there was this one point of time in life when i treated everyone i know sincerely as i used to believe in reciprocation.
But now, its a big NO NO.
Because i trusted the wrong person.
From then on, i couldn't bring myself to trust anyone, anymore.
So don't bear a grudge against me if i refuse to tell you certain things at times.
Its a mental blockage that i've not overcome yet, up till today.
But if you're really a true friend, i belive i'll be able to feel your sincerity with my heart, not see it with my eyes or hear it with my ears.




I wanna pierce another hole on my ear, and i wanna pierce my tragus too.
But i'm gonna need lots and lots of moral support, and 'physical' support too.
Anyone willing to sacrifice their hands for me?? :DD
I'll decide after prelims :)

Anyw, i did some quiz and here's the result:

You are blue! You are a deep, sensitive dreamer. You are usually laid back and calm, though, like an ocean, you can kick up a good storm, too! You are probably a daydreamer, who has his/her head in the clouds. You love spending time with your friends, and probably just go with whatever they want to do (you're a go with the flow type of person, just like water!). You are emotionally inclined - unlike reds, who feel passionately and intensely, you feel things deeply and strongly. You are extremely loyal, and your friends can always count on you to be there for them. Blues are almost always very intelligent, and they strive for perfection in many areas. You may tend to beat yourself up for your imperfections. Other people admire you and strive to be like you, but you probably have a hard time understanding why. You can be light and fun at times, and other times deep and introverted. It just depends on your mood. Sometimes you throw people off with your random changes in disposition, but your friends love you anyways. You can be a very wise, intellectual person, but you have to pull yourself up out of your own thoughts first! You, in a nutshell: Deep, emotional, wise, loyal, slightly moody, feeling, sensitive, supportive, intelligent. BLUE!

Haha! I think its true,especially the bold ones.
I'm a very wise, intellectual person, or am i not? LOL
Almost always very intelligent. Yeah, i can be really dumb and stupid at times. So dumb that i can even laugh at myself for my own stupidity.

Gotta go now, i gonna continue watching my 60-episode HK TVDrama :D
Bye~!




Someone told me that i should decide things for myself, and not let others sway my decision. I realise now, that four years ago, i should have persisted with my decision. Cos i'm regretting it now.

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