MC for 2 days.
I'm feeling freaking weak and i feel like sleeping all the time.
Here comes the funny part. I feell hungry and i'm looking forward to eating food, but when the food appears in front of me and when i'm about to shove the food into my mouth, i feel like vommiting. Then i'll end up not eating.
Then i'll get hungry again and the cycle repeats itself again. So irritating.
Went to see doc with Joan yts. We waited like eternity to see the doctor and forever to take our medicine. And they made everyone wear the sickening mask which will make you breathe in your own breath over and over again, which makes you feel even sicker.
We were god damn bored so we started to camwhore in polyclinic. LOL.
Went to Bran's house to study and then off to play volleyball last sun.
With Joan,bran,dalston and meng liang. I played till my arm bones felt like they were disintegrating.
Volleyball is fun! But my joan dear made me run and pick up the ball for like god knows how many times.
After the game went for dinner at CP. KFC staffs suck. They took almost 5 mins just to serve me my drink! Bran and meng's case were funnier, which i will not mention here lest i tarnish the reputation of KFC. :D
Maths retest tmr.
Off to do coursework B now. *Sighs*
Bye.
Saturday, July 25, 2009 @ 11:23 PM
I suggest you off your speakers if you're not one that likes English oldies.
Thank you :)
I'm feeling bored, so i decided to do this for fun.
According to my playlist, but not all :D
Sailing (Rod Stewart)I am sailing, I am sailing,
home again 'cross the sea.
I am sailing, stormy waters,
to be near you, to be free.
I am flying, I am flying,
like a bird 'cross the sky.
I am flying, passing high clouds,
to be with you, to be free.
Can you hear me, can you hear me
thro' the dark night, far away,
I am dying, forever trying, to be with you, who can say.
Can you hear me, can you hear me,
thro' the dark night far away.
I am dying, forever trying,
to be with you, who can say.
We are sailing, we are sailing,
home again 'cross the sea.
We are sailing stormy waters,
to be near you, to be free.
Oh Lord, to be near you, to be free.
Oh Lord, to be near you, to be free,
Oh Lord.
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All out of Love (Air Supply)I'm lying alone with my head on the phone.
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too,but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life feels so lowIt would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know
Doesn't really know
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on?There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone
I'll be gone
Oh, what are you thinking of? What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of
What are you thinking of?
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I've never been to me (Charlene)Hey lady, you lady
Cursing at your life
You're a discontented mother
And a regimented wife
I have no doubt
You dream about the things you never do
But I wish someone had talked to me like I wanna talk to youOh, I've been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run
Took the hand of a preacher man
And we made love in the sun
But I ran out of places and friendly faces
Because I had to be free
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me...
Please lady please lady
Don't just walk away
'Cause I have this need to tell you
Why I'm all alone today
I can see so much of me
Still living in your eyes
Won't you share a part
Of a weary heart that has lived a million lives
Oh, I've been to Neece and the isle of Greece
When I sipped champagne on a yacht
I moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo
And showed them what I've got
I've been undressed by kings
And I've seen some things that a woman ain't supposed to see
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me...
Hey, you know what paradise is?
It's a lie,A fantasy we created about people and places as we like them to be
But you know what truth is?It's that little baby you're holding
And it's that man you fought with this morning,the same one you are gonna make love with tonight.
That's truth that's loveSometimes I've been to crying for unborn children
That might have made me complete
But I, I took the sweet life
I never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet
I spent my life exploring
The subtle whoring
That cost to much to be free
Hey lady I've been to paradise
But I've never been to me..
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me.
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Don't forget to remember (Bee Gees)Oh my heart won't believe that you have left me
I keep telling my self that it's true
I can get over anything you want my love
But I can't get myself over you
Don't forget to remember me
And the love that used to be
I still remember you
I love you
In my heart lies a memory to tell the stars aboveDon't forget to remember me my loveOn my wall lies a photograph of you girl
Though I try to forget you somehow
You're the mirror of my soul so take me out of my hole
Let me try to go on living right now
Don't forget to remember me
And the love that used to be
I still remember you
I love you
In my heart lies a memory to tell the stars above
Don't forget to remember me my love
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I'd really love to see you tonight (England Dan and John Ford Coley)Hello, yeah, it's been a while.
Not much, how 'bout you?
I'm not sure why I called,
I guess I really just wanted to talk to you.
And I was thinking maybe later on,
We could get together for a while.
It's been such a long time,
And I really do miss your smile.
I'm not talking 'bout moving in,
And I don't want to change your life.
But there's a warm wind blowing,
The stars are out, and I'd really love to see you tonight.
We could go walking through a windy park,
Or take a drive along the beach.
Or stay at home and watch t.v.
You see, it really doesn't matter much to me.
I won't ask for promises,
So you won't have to lie.We've both played that game before,
Say I love you, then say goodbye.
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Nothing's gonna change my love for you (George Benson)If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever
Oh, so clearly I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your loveNothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you areSo come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you-----
Right here waiting (Richard Marx)Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy
I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy -----
The one you love (Glenn Fray)I know you need a friend, someone you can talk to
Who will understand what you're going through
When it comes to love, there's no easy answer
Only you can say what you're gonna do
I heard you on the phone, you took his number
Said you weren't alone, but you'd call him soon
Isn't he the guy, the guy who left you cryin'?
Isn't he the one who made you blue?
When you remember those nights in his arms
You know you gotta make up your mind
Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above
What you gonna say when he comes over?
There's no easy way to see this through
All the broken dreams, all the disappointment
Oh girl, what you gonna do?
Your heart keeps sayin' it's just not fair
But still you gotta make up your mind
-----
Yesterday once more (Carpenters)When I was young
I'd listen to the radio
Waitin' for my favorite songs
When they played I'd sing along
It made me smile.Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd goneBut they're back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well.
Every Sha-la-la-la Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.
When they get to the part
Where he's breakin' her heart
It can really make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more.
Lookin' back on how it was
In years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed.
It was songs of love that I would sing to then
And I'd memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away.-----
Fernando (ABBA)Can you hear the drums, Fernando?
I remember long ago another starry night like this
In the firelight, Fernando,
You were humming to yourself and softly strumming your guitar
I could hear the distant drums and sounds of bugle calls were coming from afar
They were closer now, Fernando
Ev'ry hour, ev'ry minute seemed to last eternally
I was so afraid, Fernando
We were young and full of life and none of us prepared to die
And I'm not ashamed to say the roar of guns and cannons almost made me cry
There was something in the air that night
The stars were bright, Fernando
They were shining there for you and me,
For liberty, Fernando
Though we never thought that we could lose,
There's no regret
If I had to do the same again,
I would, my friend, Fernando
If I had to do the same again,
I would, my friend, Fernando
Now, we're old and grey, Fernando
Since many years, I haven't seen a rifle in your hand
Can you hear the drums, Fernando?
Do you still recall the frightful night we crossed the Rio Grande?
I can see it in your eyes, how proud you were to fight for freedom in this land
-----
My Love (Westlife)An empty street,
an empty house,
a hole inside my heart.
I'm all alone, the rooms are getting smaller.
I wonder how,
I wonder why,
I wonder where they are.
The days we had, the songs we sang together.
And oh my love,
I'm holding on forever.
Reaching for the love that seems so far.
So I say a little prayer.
Hope my dreams will take me there.
Where the skies are blue,
to see you once again my love.
All the seas from coast to coast,
to find the place I love the most.
Where the fields are green,
to see you once again my love.I tried to read,
I go to work,
I'm laughing with my friends.
But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking.I wonder how,
I wonder why,
I wonder where they are.
The days we had, the songs we sang together.
And oh my love,
I'm holding on forever.
Reaching for the love that seems so far.
To hold you in my arms,
to promise you my love.
To tell you from the heart,
you're all I'm thinking of.
-----
Goodbye Yellow Brick Road (Elton John)When are you gonna come down
When are you going to land
I should have stayed on the farm
I should have listened to my old man
You know you can't hold me forever
I didn't sign up with you
I'm not a present for your friends to open
This boy's too young to be singing the blues
So goodbye yellow brick road
Where the dogs of society howl
You can't plant me in your penthouse
I'm going back to my plow
Back to the howling old owl in the woods
Hunting the horny back toad
So I've finally decided my future liesBeyond the yellow brick road
What do you think you'll do then
I bet that'll shoot down your plane
It'll take you a couple of vodka and tonics
To set you on your feet again
Maybe you'll get a replacement
There's plenty like me to be found
Mongrels who ain't got a penny
Sniffing for tidbits like you on the ground
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Coward of the county (Kenny Rogers)(This is a meaningful song)
Evryone considered him the coward of the county.
Hed never stood one single time to prove the county wrong.
Hi mama named him tommy, the folks just called him yellow,
But something always told me they were reading tommy wrong.
He was only ten years old when his daddy died in prison.
I looked after tommy cause he was my brothers son.
I still recall the final words my brother said to tommy:
Son, my life is over, but yours is just begun.
Promise me, son, not to do the things Ive done.
Walk away from trouble if you can.
It wont mean you're weak if you turn the other cheek.
I hope you're old enough to understand:
Son, you dont have to fight to be a man.
There's someone for evryone and tommys love was becky.
In her arms he didnt have to prove he was a man.
One day while he was workin the gatlin boys came callin.
They took turns at becky.... there was three of them.
Tommy opened up the door and saw his becky cryin.
The torn dress, the shattered look was more than he could stand.
He reached above the fireplace and took down his daddy's picture.
As his tears fell on his daddy's face, he heard these words again:
Promise me, son, not to do the things Ive done.
Walk away from trouble if you can.
It wont mean youre weak if you turn the other cheek.
I hope you're old enough to understand:
Son, you dont have to fight to be a man.
The gatlin boys just laughed at him when he walked into the barroom.
One of them got up and met him halfway cross the floor.
When tommy turned around they said, hey look! ol yellow's leavin.
But you could've heard a pin drop when tommy stopped and blocked the door.
Twenty years of crawlin was bottled up inside him.
He wasnt holdin nothin back; he let em have it all.
When tommy left the barroom not a gatlin boy was standin.
He said, this ones for becky, as he watched the last one fall.
And I heard him say,
I promised you, dad, not to do the things you done.
I walk away from trouble when I can.
Now please dont think Im weak, I didnt turn the other cheek,
And papa, I sure hope you understand:
Sometimes you gotta fight when you're a man.
Evryone considered him the coward of the county.
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CasablancaI fell in love with you watching Casablanca
Back row of the drive in show in the flickering light
Popcorn and cokes beneath the stars became champagne and caviar
Making love on a long hot summers night
I thought you fell in love with me watching Casablance
Holding hands 'neath the paddle fans in Rick's Candle lit cafe
Hiding in the shadows from the spies. Moroccan moonlight in your eyes
Making magic at the movies in my old chevrolet
Oh A kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca
But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh
Please come back to me in Casablanca
I love you more and more each day as time goes by
I guess there're many broken hearts in Casablanca
You know I've never really been there. so, I don't know
I guess our love story will never be seen on the big wide silver screen
But it hurt just as bad when I had to watch you go
Please come back to me in Casablanca
I love you more and more each day as time goes by
I love you more and more each day as time goes by
@ 8:18 PM
Happy Belated Birthday To SHUMEI ANG! :D
On 23 JulyHad a hard time trying to tell teoh that we needed to leave early. But in the end, we did it, after joan gladly refused to approach him and i had to do the dirty work. But nvm, it was worth it. :D
Rushed home to bathe and change, and met up with joan bran and shumei on bus 89. Went to Pasir ris ehub's KBOX to celebrate asm's birthday and we had truck loads of fun! Sang many many songs and we screamed into the mikes with high pitched voices whenever the song's too high for us. LOL
And KBOX is uber cold~! They blast the air con like they didn't have to pay for the electricity bill.
Skipped dinner cos there wasn't enough time as we left KBOX at 9pm, so went to play arcade. Asm intro me to Jubeat, fun game. I loved the first song we played. Yulin was there too. Linked a match with him,but i guess i bored him out cos he had to play slow songs to accomodate me.
Took neoprints, shall upload another time.
Cabbed home cos shumei needed to rush home. Was exhausted at the end of the day.
Reached home at 11.30pm.
Overall, it was a fun and hectic and tired day.
I wanna go kbox again!
Yesterday
Maths test. Yeah, failed again.
Which means the whole of next week have to stay back till 5pm or maybe even later, again. Darn it, i can't seem to break out of the so called maths jail.
Joan and i practised Algebra like crazy people for the whole of last week and we actually failed the algebra section.
We were both lectured by teoh again. This time, i really don't know what is the real reason for him scolding us. Ironic right?
Today
Wanted to go out, but was down with flu, cough and breathing difficulties in the morning. Was feeling terrible from head to toe. I even thought i had H1N1.
Took pills and had a long sleep. Lucky for me, i'm feeling well again. :D
Tomorrow
Well im not god so i can't predict exactly whats gonna happen tmr. But will be studying with brandon and joan. Have to prepare for the maths retest on monday.
MATHS, is the bane of my life.
爱也许有期限,但回忆却没有终点
笑开始的一页,别让泪写完结篇
★要用像夏天的微笑,隐藏好心情有多糟
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Wednesday, July 22, 2009 @ 9:04 PM
O level listening compre was rather easy today. I fell asleep and even dreamt, while waiting for the examination to start.
Celebration tomorrow. But still haven't found a way to tell teoh to excuse ourselves yet.
This is shit. But let's not pretend that we don't know what's going on. It's darn obvious. I will sort things out sooner or later. For i do not want things to be left uncleared.
I felt so hurt and irritated when i found out what you actually said.
And *** ****** ******* *****, *** **** *** **** *********** *** ***.
Mark my words.
Some people really should just shut their mouths and stop interfering when they have not seen the whole picture.
One day, people will understand.
Mark my words again.
You're a hypocrite.
How does falling into a deep sleep and never waking up again, sound?
Thanks Joan dear, i think only we understand each other. We're two of a kind.
Your words really enlighten me.
Believe in yourself, and i will too.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009 @ 6:35 PM
Ok fine,if you have the guts, tell it straight to my face then.
Sunday, July 19, 2009 @ 8:13 PM
Studied with Bran till 11 plus last night. Like i said, it was productive. :)
Went to Shirlynn's condo with alvina to study today. Wasn't quite productive though. We were more interested in talking and checking out the facilities that her condo has.
I'm freaking tired now. And i think i know why.
I thought you would always be by my side, but no. Thats not the case.
I did a lot of thinking just now, and i really wonder what on earth is going on. I really felt very confused. I just couldn't get facts right. When i piece the fragments i had in mind, i found that they don't go well enough to give me the whole picture.
I really hope history won't repeat itself. One very good example was me and her.
I really regretted. For all the shits that happened and landed us in this state.
Another thing, i really don't want anything to go wrong with this friendship we have right now. If you're not happy with anything or are angry at certain things, please please please talk about it, so at least we can sort things out. Don't remain silent in a corner. Cos when you start behaving out of character, it really scares me and i'd feel disturbed.
This time, i'm not afraid to admit that i do feel sad.
Friday, July 17, 2009 @ 7:48 PM
If i can rewind he clock, i'll take back all the things that i have done.
Stop all the damages that could have happened.
Now i know how you felt.
Sorry.
I hope things would still turn out fine.
But bear in mind,
It takes two hands to clap.
Sometimes, its not just about me.
Because your words and actions matter too.
I alone can't make things perfectly right.
You're my friend.
In the past, you were.
Now, you are.
In days,months and years to come, you will still be :)
Can you assure me that what i said is true?
@ 2:14 PM
Misty taste of moonshine, teardrops in my eyesToday's lessons were relaxed, except for the maths test. Yes, as usual, i failed again. Which means next week have to stay back till 5pm everyday,again. But i really don't mind, cos this way, i can force myself to study and at least learn something. Better and more productive as compared to coming home and sleep.
Going to study with Bran tmr. Its gonna be productive :D
Do true friends really exist??
I really wanna know the answer.
I don't belong here.
If there's god, then please, bring me to somewhere i really belong to.
I see no reason why i should give a damn when you don't give two hoots about it.
I'm not afraid to admit that i'm afraid of losing what i have now.
Take me to your heart, take me to your soul.
Give me your hand before i'm old.
Tell me what love is, haven't got a clue.
Show me that wonders can be true.
They say nothing lasts forever,
we're only here today.
Love is now or never.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009 @ 9:24 PM
I just realised i haven't been blogging for quite some time.
I don't even have enough time to sleep, let alone blog.
Well apparently its because "my all time favourite teacher who never fails to put a smile on my face" made me stay back till 5pm every single day to finish up at least 3 sums before i can go home.
Omg its really mentally and physically draining.
My normal functioning brain cells are depleting. Soon, you'll see me behaving like some crazy mad woman who doesn't speak with a right mind.
Anyw, that awesome "all time favourite teacher who never fails to put a smile on my face" killed me with his words again. But then again, he talked to me in a really nice tone after the incident. So i really have no freaking idea what's going on in his awesome mind. Maybe he's too deep for me to comprehend.
This morning was super dark. Dark and heavy rain clouds hovered above the grounds, threatening to release the rain it held anytime. And it made the place seem like a ghost town. I was locking my gate when it was time to off the lights in the buildings. The moment the lights went off, i was freaked out. I even had difficulty locking my gate properly!
Was hoping that it wouldn't rain until i reach school. But no, i wasn't so lucky. When i was in the bus listening to music, and when the song Rhythm of the rain started playing, it really started raining. Wth.
And it was raining cats and dogs.
Joan darling brought umbrella down for me! So sweet! Thank your dear!
She even walked to the wrong bustop and had to walk all the way back just for me!
After school Went to Cp with Joan dear to have lunch and do our work there. Bran came to join us after his lessons were over.
Ate at BK. Both of them ate, but not me. Cos BK burgers just don't appeal to me.
I prefer Breadtalk's bread to BK's burgers. :D
Got back SS results. 32/50
Contented, but not satisfied.
If you would just slow down with your footsteps and take a look behind you, you'll realise that........
Sunday, July 12, 2009 @ 6:30 PM
I'm done with my DPA application write up. Now waiting for the Empress Dowager to help me go through it and see if its ok for submission. :D
Excited excited.
Really hope i could at least get shortlisted for the interview.
wish me luck! :D
Joke of the day:
I was lazy to get out of the house to buy lunch so i decided to cook my own porridge.
It took me so much trouble and time to get my porridge ready and i perspired in the kitchen. I took almost 45 mins to prepare the ingredients.
So shouldn't i have just taken a 5 min walk down to the coffeeshop and get a packet of noodles, then another 5 min walk back home and enjoy my food? Instead of slogging in the kitchen and perspiring just to get a pathetic bowl of porridge?
LOL
@ 5:08 PM
She knows when I'm lonesome.
She cries when I'm sad.
She's up in the good times,
She' s down in the bad.
Whenever I'm discouraged,
She knows just what to do.
But girl, she doesn't know about you.
I can tell her my troubles.
She makes them all seem right.
I can make up excuses,
Not to hold her at night.
We can talk of tomorrow,
I'll tell her things that I want to do.
But girl, how can I tell her about you?
How can I tell her about you?
Girl, please tell me what to do.
Everything seems right whenever I'm with you.
So girl, won't you tell me.
How to tell her about you?
How can I tell her I don't miss her whenever I'm awake?
How can I say it's you I think of every single night and day.
But when is it easy telling someone we're through.
Oh girl, help me tell her about you.
Saturday, July 11, 2009 @ 7:43 PM
Went for the Ultimate Poly Experience yesterday.
It was very informative. And im so happy when i found out that the course i want doesn't include maths as a relevent subject! But still, im determined not to fail maths anymore.
Were the only skss people there. Looks like no one in Seng kang is interested in Ngee Ann poly? LOL
Met some people from hong kar(?) sec. The lecturer sort of like made us play ice breakers games? But luckily all were very on, no one refused to talk infront of the whole class.
Most were very determined to get into mass comm.
Luckily i'm not really interested in that course. Its really competitive. But if i'm able to make it for o levels, i'll consider taking mass comm instead of APR.
But for now, i really really really want to get into APR through DPA. Yes, i'm applying for DPA. :D
I'll do up my application tmr.
Planned to go and watch raymond lam at jurong point earlier on. Finally he's in Singapore and i really wanted to see how he looks like in real life. I'm a big fan of his ok. But no one agreed to go with me. Even mum refused to accompany me there. I asked more than 5 people. Nobody my age likes him meh?
End up not going, cos i couldn't bear the long journey to and fro, alone.
Omg i wished you were there for i almost died.
Thursday, July 09, 2009 @ 10:25 PM
There's something very wrong with CHUA WEI YING JOAN.
Wanna know why?
Just take a look at my tagboard and you'll know the answer. :D
Thanks Mr GOHJIAHUI for the card and chocolate! :D
I think i'm taking back the words i said previously. All the cursing and swearing about the Adam khoo workshop or course thing. The course was really fun! And all the trainers were damn funny and they really made us laugh like mad people.
I think these two days were the ones that i laughed the most number of times in school.
Yesterday the whole day was all playing and joking. Learnt some techniques on studying too.
13 hours of joy and laughter! :D
Today was ok, but not as funny as yesterday cos they focused more on teaching us skills. And Melvin brainwashed us. He made almost everyone in the AVA room cry by just saying some things.
But this workshop is really really very motivating. I'm motivated to study now :D
ok, lets see how long this motivation can last!
I just wonder if the trainers are making up what they said, as in their life stories. Cos thbere's this little part of me that refuses to believe them.
Oh, and cheena o level oral today.
The good thing is, i Didn't die on it.
The bad thing is, i don't have enough confidence of scoring high.
*Big sigh*
Gotta go now. I'm super sleepy.
I planned to skip school tmr. But found out that there's freaking 3 periods of emaths tms. So for the sake of my maths, I have to go! T.T
And im going for the poly experience tmr! Excited :D But needa rush home after school to get ready then take a bus ride that is 50 mins long all the way to ngee ann poly. But for the sake of my future, i have to go!
Haha ok im turning melodramatic. I shall stop.
Bye~!
Tuesday, July 07, 2009 @ 12:17 PM
Prelim 1 is finally over! Here comes prelim 2 :(
Something happened between ah huan, me and joan just now.
Joan and i were at the provision shop outside school when i saw him coming towards us. I told joan "eh,albert teoh" and i stared at him. He walked past us and i freaking forced myself to say hi. Joan greeted him too. But he ******* didn't even bother to reply us! He just walked past us like he can't see us!! WTF?!
See how idiotic can a teacher get?? Early know i should have ignored him, don't even need to bother forcing myself to waste my breath just to say hi to him. !@#$%^&*()?!
I'm bored. So i got myself a quiz to do, to entertain myself.
14 people i can think of at the top of my head.
1. Ang shu mei
2. Joan
3. Brandon
4. Hui mei
5. Alvina
6. MC
7. Weihong
8. Jaynie
9. Tiffany
10.Jason
11.Christina
12.Evelyn
13.Ravetha
14.Hari
-How did you get to meet 7? (Weihong)Classmates since sec 3
-What would you do if you and 13 never met? (Ravetha) Life would be boring in lower sec and there wouldn't be someone to crap with me over some things that cannot be said out loud.
-What would you do if 1 and 12 date? (Ang shu mei)(Evelyn) Its IMPOSSIBLE.
-Have you ever seen 14 cry? (Hari) Come to think of it, no.
-Would 4 and 11 be a good couple? (Hui mei)(Christina) Maybe? Its gonna be another sad case though. And to start with, they don't even know each other.
-Do you think 11 is attractive? (Christina) Woo hoo!
-What's 2's favourite colour? (Joan) She has so many favourite colours that she herself can't decide on them at times.
-When was the last time you talked to 9? (Tiffany) face to face or? Last the last week.
-What language does 8 speak? (Jaynie) Human language
-Who is 13 going out with? (Ravetha) It seems like Raveena.
-What grade is 12 in? (Evelyn) She's done studying already. :D
-Would you ever date with 10? (Jason) Hmmm...thats a very good question! :D
-Where does 5 lives? (Alvina) Hougang chalet, just like me :DD
-What's the best thing about 3? (Brandon) He's nice! :D
-What would you want to tell 10 now? (Jason) I miss you! Haha :D And good luck for your chinese oral! Jiayou jiayou! :DD
-What's the best thing about 8? (Jaynie) She's cute but sensible.
-Have you ever kissed 5? (Alvina) Hehe nope.
-What was the best memory you have with 7? (Weihong) I can't remember.
-When's the last time you're going to see 6? (MC) I DONCH KNOW
-How is 14 and 12 different? (Hari)(evelyn) Their race
-Is 6 pretty? (MC) She looks prettier with her hair though
-How did you meet 5? (Alvina) Same sec school?
-Is 1 your best friend? (ang shu mei) Best best friend (:
-Do you hate 12? (Evelyn) I don't hate her. I love her! :D
-Have you seen 4 on the last month? (Hui mei)I see her almost everyday!
-When was the last time you talk to 3? (Brandon)The day before yesterday
-Have you been to 5's house? (Alvina) Yeap.
-When's the next time you gonna see 10? (Jason) I want to know too.
-Are you close to 13? (Ravetha) Can say so ba.
-Have you ever been to a movie with 4 before? (Hui mei) Yup.
-Have you ever gotten into trouble with 8? (Jaynie) No?
-Would you give 2 a hug? (Joan) OF COURSEEEE! She's my wife. Why eouldn't i hug her??
-When have you lied to 3? (Brandon) I don't think so?
-Is 1 good with socializing? (Ang shu mei) Oh yes of course.
-Do you know secrets about 9? (Tiffany) I think so
-Describe the relationship between 12 and 14. (Evelyn)(Hari) They donch know each other la
-Best thing about your friendship with 9? (Tiffany) We don't see each other very often but we're still quite close!
-What's the worst thing about 6? (MC) She sings and chants too much. LOL
-Have you ever had a crush on 12? (evelyn) Nope, thats insensible. :D
-Does 14 has a girlfriend or boyfriend? (Hari) I don't know!!
-Have you ever wanted to punch 1's face? (Ang shu mei) HAHA i would love to! (oops)
-Has 2 met your mother? (Joan) Yeah
-How did you get to meet 3? (Brandon) His cute face caught my attention during sec one. Haha!
-Did you ever physically hurt 3? (brandon) YES, I hit him when he does stupid or idiotic or mean things. :D
-Do you live close to 7? (Weihong) Not really
-What's 8's favourite food? (Jaynie) I'm not sure.
-What kind of car does 1 has? (Ang shumei) stationery toy cars :D
-Have you travelled anywhere with 9 before? (Tiffany) Nope
-If you give 14 $100 , what will he/she spend it on? (Hari) Whichever way she likes it.
OMG this quiz is longgggg. And not fun!
Monday, July 06, 2009 @ 3:36 PM
Take some time to read the passage below. I cried while reading it.
Its really moving and sad.
By Jim Willis 2001
When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh.
You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I was "bad", you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could you?" -- but then you'd relent, and roll me over for a bellyrub.
My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together. I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs," you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day.
Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell inlove. She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still I welcomed her into our home, tried to show her affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy.
Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh, how I wanted to love them, but I became "prisoner of love."
As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved everything about them and their touch -- because your touch was now so infrequent -- and I would have defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway. There had been a time, when others askedyou if you had a dog, that you produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me.
These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented every expenditure on my behalf. Now, you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you and they will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've made the right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only family. I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal shelter.
It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for her." They shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the realities facing a middle-aged dog, even one with "papers." You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar as he screamed "No, Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for him,and what lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love and responsibility, and about respect for all life. You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you. You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too.
After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home.
They shook their heads and asked "How could you?" They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow. They feed us, of course, but I lost my appetite days ago. At first,whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you that you had changed your mind -- that this was all a bad dream ... or I hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might save me.
When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited.
I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day, and I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room. A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told me not toworry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her, and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood.
She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured "How could you?"
Perhaps because she understood my dogspeak, she said "I'm so sorry." She hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for myself -- a place of love and light so very different from this earthly place. And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my "How could you?" was not directed at her.
It was you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of. I will think of you and wait for you forever. May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty.
Yes, i cried, what about you?
This reminds me of my previous cockel spaniel, an abandoned dog that my family decided to keep. After two years with him, we decided to give him away because we didn't have the means to take care of him anymore. We called SPCA, and went down to the void deck to wait for the van to arrive and bring him away. I saw him go up the van,looking excited and happy,cos he thought he would be brought to somewhere to have fun with us. But no, that was not the case. I bet he felt sad, scared and lost after he found out that we decided to give him away. That was the last time i saw him. Later on, i went back to SPCA in hope of finding him and paying him a visit. But he was no longer there. I don't know what they did to him, or whether he has found a new home or not.
I still miss him.
Although i have luckyboy for 6 years now and i'm loving him to the max, i still miss him.
@ 2:59 PM
I attempted to change my blogskin, but what the heck, so many problems occurred. So i gave up and did some alterations to my current one. :D
I've not studied for chem yet.
And i may be going out later, too meet my so awesome beloved :DD
But its not confirmed yet. I'll see how it goes.
Chem tomorrow! And i'm really panicking now cos i really don't know how to complete the questions in the 05 06 o level paper.
Mum's on course, so she doesn't have time to coach me. :(
There's this stupid motivational course awaiting us on this coming wed and thurs. Its supposed to motivate us to study harder and teach us techniques on how to study effectively. But guess what? The talk is freaking 13 hours straight! For two days!
So it adds up to a total of 26 hours of time spent in school in school uniform doing nothing but sitting infront of the speaker listening to whatever crap they're paid to tell us. In other words, i'm paying $40 to spend a total of 26 hours in school with my school uniform doing nothing but sitiing infront of the speaker listening to whatever crap i'm paying her to tell me. Isn't this stupid? I'm paying money to torture myself and to waste my life away in school.
And i heard the talk is downright boring. Oh well, what is the school thinking about? They're willing to sacrifice two whole days of lessons just to make us sit through this supposedly motivational talk. ?!
Why can't some people be a little teeny weeny bit more THIN skinned??
And why can't i get more response?
Sunday, July 05, 2009 @ 7:42 PM
LISTEN TO THE RHYTHM OF THE FALLING RAIN <3
Its raining so heavily now. The whole house is so dark and i'm the only one at home.
I like rainy days. The bigger the better, but only if i'm at home :D
Oh, but did i mention that i dislike lightning and thunder? Because they freaking scare the living daylights out of me.
I stood by the window and watched the rain fall just now. Its nice :) And cooling :DD
Ok, i'll blog about yesterday.
Went to plaza sing with Darling Joan! And it was really fun, though there were only the two of us. Who said two people can't have fun together??
Anyw, we walked,shopped around, bought things and talked alot and we made fun of alot of things along the way! We talked even more when we were having lunch at kfc. :D
Oh ya, the cheena woman who served us at kfc was damn idiotic lor. We ordered 2 sets of 2pc meaal and we said we wanted all thighs. Then she didn't want to give us all thighs and tried to bargain with us by giving us 2 thighs and 2 drums!! What is this?! HELLO?! I'm fucking paying for gst and whatever service thingy and how can they not give us what we ordered?! Its not like im not paying! What is the world coming to man. Yeah, an end.
After shopping we trained back to cp.
Walked into 7-11 and we saw the guy who acted as soon lee in fighting spiders! Together with our school that scott. That kid central guy? LOL
Then went to bits and pieces and i got my ear pierced again! :D
Next up is tragus. Joan chua, wait for me ok! And Brandon yeo, make sure your hotline is 24/7 available! :D
Went to Bran's house downstairs the void deck to study. But we were playing and talking more than we were studying. And Joan was torturing my hair when she tried to help me tie french plaits. LOL
And i had a hard time getting that stupid earing into her ear HOLE.
Went home at 11 plus. :D
I will scream my head of at the next person who tries to scare me with anything that has more than four legs. I'm serious :D
Threewordstwopeopleonemeaning :)
Friday, July 03, 2009 @ 8:42 PM
I SCREWED UP MY BIO.
Bio paper 4 and chem/bio mcq.
I think i screwed both up.
Regretted not studying, cos the exact same questions were really right infront of me yesterday. I thought the teachers didn't mean it when they said they would test us on the 05 06 o level paper. I was thinking 'where got so good one?spoon feed us with the questions and the answers' so i went to study my notes.
And tada, when i opened the test paper today, i wanted to knock my dumb head on the wall.
Chem mcq too. I don't know what nonsense numbers i shaded on the otas form.
Anyw, its over, i think i won't fail, but will not get a good grade. I'm gonna kena from Mrs Quek very very soon. *sighs*
Sometimes i really wonder what life is all about, and what some people are thinking. Why must things be so complicated? Why can't they be simplified, so everyone can live in peace and harmony without any disputes?
And what are true friends? My earlier definition of true friends was people whom you can trust and confide in, people who won't misplace your trust, people who will stand by you in times of need. They're the ones who will lend you a listening ear when you need one, listen to you crap about your troubles and encourage you even though its none of their business, and they will lend you their shoulder for some support when you feel that life is too overwhelming or meaningless.
But now, i think differently. Yes, its easy to make friends, but its difficult to find true friends. Because i feel that people wear masks once they step out of their houses. On the surface, this person may seem nice, talking to you with a wide smile on his/her face, and agreeing with everything you say. But deep beneath, who knows what he/she is thinking? For all you know, he/she might just be entertaining you to gain your trust so that he/she can somehow gain benefits from you in time to come.
Everyone is selfish. Admit it, no one is totally selfless.
Ever heard of this saying? 人不为己，天诛地灭.
I used to belive in true friends.
I thought they were people whom i could trust my secrets and problems with.
And i swear that there was this one point of time in life when i treated everyone i know sincerely as i used to believe in reciprocation.
But now, its a big NO NO.
Because i trusted the wrong person.
From then on, i couldn't bring myself to trust anyone, anymore.
So don't bear a grudge against me if i refuse to tell you certain things at times.
Its a mental blockage that i've not overcome yet, up till today.
But if you're really a true friend, i belive i'll be able to feel your sincerity with my heart, not see it with my eyes or hear it with my ears.
I wanna pierce another hole on my ear, and i wanna pierce my tragus too.
But i'm gonna need lots and lots of moral support, and 'physical' support too.
Anyone willing to sacrifice their hands for me?? :DD
I'll decide after prelims :)
Anyw, i did some quiz and here's the result:
You are blue! You are a
deep, sensitive dreamer. You are usually laid back and calm, though,
like an ocean, you can kick up a good storm, too! You are probably a daydreamer, who has his/her head in the clouds. You
love spending time with your friends, and probably just go with whatever they want to do (you're a go with the flow type of person, just like water!).
You are emotionally inclined - unlike reds, who feel passionately and intensely, you
feel things deeply and strongly. You are extremely loyal, and your friends can always count on you to be there for them. Blues are almost always very intelligent, and they
strive for perfection in many areas. You may tend to beat yourself up for your imperfections. Other people admire you and strive to be like you, but you probably have a hard time understanding why.
You can be light and fun at times, and other times deep and introverted. It just depends on your mood. Sometimes you throw people off with your random changes in disposition, but your friends love you anyways. You can be a very wise, intellectual person, but you have to pull yourself up out of your own thoughts first! You, in a nutshell: Deep, emotional, wise, loyal, slightly moody, feeling, sensitive, supportive, intelligent. BLUE!
Haha! I think its true,especially the bold ones.
I'm a very wise, intellectual person, or am i not? LOL
Almost always very intelligent. Yeah, i can be really dumb and stupid at times. So dumb that i can even laugh at myself for my own stupidity.
Gotta go now, i gonna continue watching my 60-episode HK TVDrama :D
Bye~!
Someone told me that i should decide things for myself, and not let others sway my decision. I realise now, that four years ago, i should have persisted with my decision. Cos i'm regretting it now.Labels: but i can't guarantee you won't be too late., Catch me if you still want
Wednesday, July 01, 2009 @ 11:33 PM
Lit and emaths paper 2 today. Both were terrible. But lit was better than emaths. Should have skipped school today. My emaths is really hopeless this time round. Gonna kena from ah huan again soon. Whatever.
Anyw, after papers went to cp for lunch with joan shumei and brandon.
Ahhhhhhhhh, im tired. Dont wanna continue anymore.
Sorry for the incomplete post.
bye
