Heather Lee
I am me, i ain't pretentious no more. You gotta know me to find it out. And, music definitely is in me ;)
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My Dream
I would like to travel around the world with a loved one and watch as many sunsets as i can. It would be best if the weather is good and it comes with magnificent sceneries and the sounds of nature. Sometimes, i gotta admit that the sound of nature is euphoric. I want to stay in a hotel room on the top floor with a full window view of a busking city so that when i look out of the window at night, i see the beautiful lights under the dark quiet sky. I want to visit Chicago, Cassablanca and Massachusetts. I heard the western countryside is nice. Its simple but beautiful. Quiet but filled with laughter of the people who are contented with what they have over there. I want to experience a farm stay. Wake up to the sounds of the farm animals. Bathe horses and milk cows. I want to see real cowboys and join them for their campfire gathering sessions. As well as sing along to the good old folk songs that they play with their guitars and banjos. One day, eventually, i believe i will find a guy who will bring me to all these places, experience the life that i've mentioned and maybe more, as well as spend the rest of his life with me till we both turn old and grey. Until then, we will still stroll on the beach hand in hand, as we watch the sun submerge into the vast seas once again.
-Heather :)


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Monday, June 29, 2009 @ 6:46 PM

English prelims today. I guess i wasn't ready for it because when i opened the question paper ofr paper 1, my mind was blank and i thought to myself "wtf?!what kind of questions are these?!" and continued staring at the questions for 10 whole minutes before deciding to do which one.
And i did this: Describe an event that changed your outlook in life
Guess what i wrote about, because i'm not telling you. Hah.

I feel like laughing. I wanna watch those aunties dance line dance outside hougang mall again.
Talking about it, last sat i met up with Joan to borrow her SS notes ro photocopy cos i lost mine. Went to hougang mall, dalston was with us. And we watched many many aunties dance some ine dance thing outside hougang mall. They were shaking their butts are whirling their bodies around like there's no tomorrow. LOL
I kept on laughing. Hey, not only i laugh ok. That two beside me also laughed hor.
And i think people saw us laughing at them. But who cares? I laugh when i want to laugh. What can they do?
Then after that i went to meet MY BOY-FRIEND.
Haha i'm not telling you who. Because joan's wants to know badly and i'm not telling her. But hey, botfriend doesn't mean in love ok. It simply means a friend of the opposite sex :D
Parted with joan and went to meet boyfriend, and we walked around aimlessly around the area and watched more line dance. It was nice spending time with him, although we had no destination in mind and just walked and chatted all the way. Well, its always nice when you're with someone nice. So it makes the whole experience nice. But nice people are hard to come by now. You hardly meet someone thats really nice to you and treats you genuinely.
Then mum wanted me to accompany her go cut hair, boyfriend waited with me until she came then he left. :D
I feel like cutting my hair too. If troubles are like hair, i'll snip them off without any thought. But its not that easy, you know what i mean?
HAHA JOAN CHUA WEI YING im still not telling the name of my boy-friend :D


What's the fucking problem with everyone?! Can't you people just give me some peace and quiet? One day when i really flare, all of you will regret. Trust me on this. I have been enduring all these nonsense for a long time. Far too long.

And i hate people who don't keep promises and don't bother giving you a reply or a confirmation. F***.
Saturday, June 27, 2009 @ 3:01 PM

Quiz from Joan's blog!



A. Ang shumei
1) Do you love this person? Do i have a choice to not say NO? Haha yes i love her! :D
2) Is this person your enemy? If i love her it means she's not my enemy right? Common sense!
3) Is this person taller than you? Nope! :D

B. Brandon Yeo.
1) What do you really think of this person? He's really nice when he's being nice. He's really meam when he chooses to be mean. He's really scary when he flares. And he's smart when he doesn't study much!
2) What’s their favourite color? Orange. The brighter the better that kind! :D
3) Ever danced with them? Nope!

C. Chua Wei Ying JOAN WIFEY!
1) Do you like this person? I love her!
2) Where did you meet this person? Secondary school. I hated her at first sight. But now i love her and she's my wife! :D
3) How old is she/he? Same as me! But 2 months younger.

D. Daryl
1) How long have you known him/her? A few years?
2) Biggest regret? Nothing

E. Evelyn!
1) Have you met their parents? Nope.
2) Worst thing about this person? She likes someone whom i don't really fancy.
3) Best thing about this person? Almost everything! I love her so much!:D

F. Fang min qi
1) Have you ever dated this person? Not really. Just went out together
2) When is the next time you will see him/her? I'm not sure. It depends.
3) Do you go to school with them? Nope, different schools. :D

G. Grace
1) Are they a good listener? eeeee NO.
2) Have you ever lied to this person? Yes
3) Is this person nice? She's not nice at all! ok la, maybe sometimes only.

H. Hui mei
1) What year are they in? Same year as me?
2) Is he/she your best friend? Not really, she's my admirer. LOL! (:
3) Ever done something illegal with this person? Nope!

I. Irene
1) What is this person’s favourite food? Idontknow
2) Where did you meet this person? When i was working
3) Do you trust them? nope, we're not really close

J. Jason
1) Do they have any siblings? one elder sister and one younger brother. :D
2) Do you know their favourite song? I think it changes from time to time?
3) What would you do if they confessed they liked you? Is this gonna happen? if not im not gonna answer this. LOL

K. Kellie ng
1) How old were you when you first met? seven!
2) How did you meet? Same school bus :D
3) Ever danced with this person? Nope.

L. Lawrence
1) What would you do if you had never met this person? Life would be sad. He's great at telling jokes and making me laugh :D
2) Do you like him/her? Yeap!
3) Would you go to Disney World with this person? I don't think disney world is his kinda thing.

M. MC
1) Is this person older than you? Yeap
2) Is this person single? Yes.
3) How many times do you communicate with them in a week? Almost every school day?

N. Natasha
1) Is this person your boyfriend/girlfriend? NO
2) Have you seen this person cry? YES! in europe!
3)Do you know this person’s middle name? I think natasha is her middle name

O. Ong han shi
1) Are you related? Friends! Since sec one.
2) Could you live with this person? I guess so? 've not tried before.
3) Do you believe this person is gay? gay as in happy? Yeap :D

P. Pamela
1) Have you ever been to the mall with this person? I think so
2) How about a sleepover with them? i dont think so. But no harm trying?
3) Does this person have a job? Still studying!

Q. Quek fen ling
1) Does this person drink alcohol? nope.
2) Have you seen this person dance? random dance? yeah.
3) where do they work ? Don't know .

R. Ravetha
1) Have you heard this person sing? Yes! And we sing together!
2) Do you think this person will repost this? maybe? If she's too bored
3) Whats one thing you would change about this person? She's too self conscious. LOL

S. Shirlynn
1) Is this person taller than you? No
2)you enjoy spending time with him/her? Not too bad :D
3) Do they live close to you? Yeap, she lives a street behind me, i think

T. Tiffany
1) What you do anything for him/her? What qns is this?! Do what?!
2) Have you been to his/her house? Yeah!
3) Does this person eat shit? Stupid question. Who eats shit?!

U. Underdog!
1) Is this person in a relationship? Its a dog.
2) Do you know where he lives? Where do you live?
3) What colour hair does this person have? What's yours?

V. Valentina
1) Do you see this person alot? Last time yes, now no
2) When did you meet her/him? somewhere last year?or the year before? i cant rmb!
3) Is this person your friend? Like duh! Do i look like i go out with bloody strangers that i donch now?!

W. Weihong
1) Is this person quiet or loud? It really depends on her mood.
2) Name a friend that both of you are close too? Both? none i guess. Joan? O.o
3) What color eyes does this person have? Black

X. Xiao Ling
1) Why are you friends with him/her? Because i like her and thats why. Dumb question.
2) Have you ever gone anywhere with them? DUH!
3) What is one thing you would change about them? Oh, her habit of not talking in the morning.

Y. Yilin
1) Does this person wear make-up? No
2) Does this person play any instruments? i dont know
3) What is their favourite sport? idk. I think netball.

Z. Z
1) Does this person have MSN/AIM? i.
2) Ever gone shopping with him/her? Dont.
3) Does this person have any special skills.? Know
Friday, June 26, 2009 @ 3:31 PM

Oh my oh my oh my.
I intended to apply for DPA.
But then i just realised that most recent results have to be included in the 500 write up application.
And my MYE results are really not that fantastic. Especially my maths, if you know what i mean.
I think this means that my DPA application has no hope already.
But my mum still asked me to try for it.
God, i don't wanna paiseh myself with that kind of results. If minus the maths, i'm still abit confident. But including the maths, my confidence is totally crashed.
Oh well, i shall just go for it and wish i'll be shortlisted for the interview. WISH, is the keyword here now.
Oh ya, im trying for advertising and PR.
And im gonna go be a poly student at ngee ann for a day :D



Gotta go now.
Watching 古惑仔之人在江 now.
Exciting!
Thursday, June 25, 2009 @ 3:09 PM

I'm trying to get myself back on the study mode.
It's difficult. I look at the homework and my mood goes all the way down the drain.
When i start doing the sums/questions, i realise that i've forgotten quite a number of things.
And you know what? Prelims are 3 days away. I think i'll flunk this prelim.
I NEED HELP~!

Going out to study with shumei ang later. Not sure if she's calling anyone else though. Anyone interested to join pls contact me her. :D




Sometimes things just don't turn out the way you want them to.
If only matters were as easy as ABCs.
If only i can turn back the clock.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009 @ 6:25 PM

想为你做件事
让你更快乐的事
好在你的心中
埋下我的名字
求时间趁著你
不注意的时候
悄悄地把这种子
酿成果实
我想她的确是
更适合你的女子
我太不够温柔
优雅成熟懂事
如果我退回到
好朋友的位置
你也就不再需要
为难成这样子
很爱很爱你所以愿意
舍得让你往更多幸福的地方飞去
很爱很爱你只有让你拥有爱情
我才安心
看著她走向你那幅画面多美丽
如果我会哭泣也是因为欢喜
地球上两个人
能相遇不容易
做不成你的情人我仍感激
很爱很爱你所以愿意
不牵绊你飞向幸福的地方去
很爱很爱你只有让你
拥有爱情我才安心
很爱很爱你所以愿意
不牵绊你飞向幸福的地方去
很爱很爱你只有让你
拥有爱情我才安心


Nagai aida matasete gomen
Mata kyuu ni shigoto ga haitta
Itsumo issho ni irarenakute
Sabishii omoi wo saseta ne

Aenai toki juwaki kara kikoeru
Kimi no koe ga kasureteru
Hisashiburi ni atta toki no
Kimi no egao ga mune wo saratte iku

Kizuita no anata ga konna ni mune no naka ni iru koto
Aishiteru masaka ne sonna koto ienai

Anata no sono kotoba dake wo shinjite
Kyou made matte ita watashi
Egao dake wa wasurenai you ni
Anata no soba ni itai kara

Waratteru anata no soba dewa sunao ni nareru no
Aishiteru demo masaka ne sonna koto ienai

Kizuita no anata ga konna ni mune no naka ni iru koto
Aishiteru masaka ne sonna koto ienai
Waratteru anata no soba dewa sunao ni nareru no
Aishiteru demo masaka ne sonna koto ienai

Kizuita no anata ga konna ni mune no naka ni iru koto
Aishiteru masaka ne sonna koto ienai
Waratteru anata no soba dewa sunao ni nareru no
Aishiteru demo masaka ne sonna koto ienai




I'm sorry for making you wait such a long time.
Work came up suddenly again.
Always being unable to be together
I know I've made you feel lonely.
At the times when we can't meet
your voice cracks over the telephone.
The smile on your face that time when we met after so long
Tugs at my chest.
I've realized that you are deep within my heart.
"I love you" I can't imagine myself saying those words.
Trusting only in that thing you said
I've been waiting until today.
I pray I won't forget how to smile,
Because I want to be with you
Because when I am with you, laughing, I can open up.
"I love you" even so, I can't imagine saying those words aloud
I've realized that you are deep within my heart.
"I love you"-- I just can't say it
Because when I am with you, laughing, I can open up.
"I love you" even so, I can't imagine saying those words aloud!
I've realized that you are deep within my heart.
"I love you" I just can't say it
Because when I am with you, laughing, I can open up.
"I love you"-- even so, I can't imagine saying those words aloud
@ 4:40 PM

I had a dream. But when i woke up, everything's gone.
Its been a long time. A really long time.

Move on, my dear :)
Tuesday, June 23, 2009 @ 9:53 PM

I'm freaking tired. Especially my feet. The heels i wore today nearly killed me.

Career Quest today. Woke up at 5.45am. And i slept at almost 4am last night. So can you imagine how tired and unwilling i was to get out of my bed?
Met shumei, joan and brandon at mac for breakfast at 7am. Then walked to school afterwards.
First thing was a short briefing, then we were sent back to class to be coached on how to present yourself in society and things like that.
I was practically falling asleep but well, i managed to pull through the whole seminar unlike Joan! Who left like at 10.30? :D
Lunch was provided, but the food wasn't that good but still good. Skipped the talk after lunch (oops) and me, brandon and asm went to slack at one of the staircases.
So cool! This is the second time me and bran slacked at school's staircase to 'avoid' certain events. The last time was when we were in sec 1, on racial harmony day. I guess there won't be a third time? Cos we're graduating soon and i don't think there'll be some more of these kinda events.
Anyw, we took quite a number of pics. All of them are at facebook. But i wanna upload some of them here! Ok, will do just that later.

After skipping the talk we went straight to the booths that the various polys set up. I'm thinking of either doing vet tech or public relations. The polys are like vying for students! LOL. i went into the ngee ann booth and enquired about PR and hospitality. The person in charge asked about my results and once i told her my results and stuffs like i've written for the school magazine and done presentations onstage, she kept on talking and didn't want to let me go! I told her ok,i'll think about it. Thank you very much. But she just kept on talking and talking and explaining and explaining and even asked me to apply for DPA. LOL

After that was prize presentaion and photo taking. Boring.
I never felt happier about going home to shower and bathe like i did today. It was a plunk on the bed and off to lalaland i went, instantly. :D


Buddha buddha buddha please help me. I've not touched much on my homework. And school's reopening soon! I can't seem to get myself back into the study mode.
Tons of homework waiting to be done. Somebody slap and motivate me please.


Photos! :D













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WHY WHY WHY? :(
Sunday, June 21, 2009 @ 10:27 PM

Happy Father's Day to all Dads in the world! And especially with love to my dearest Dad.
Went to Vivo with family today.
Went into the pey shop to look at dogs. All of them are really cute!!
There's this Dashund which made me laugh. Cos i disturbed it with funny noises through the glass panel and it actually reacted to me! And i also used my BLACK earpiece to play with it. Mum found out that it didn't like the colour BLACK. Thats why i caps-ed the BLACK. LOL
But the dogs were really cute! Much much much cuter than cats.

Oh, and i felt so exposed today! Im not gonna blog about it here.
Ask me in private if you wanna know. And i'll see if i wanna tell you. :D


Came upon this quiz in friend's blog. So im doing it for fun! I've been doing so many quizzes lately.




1. Think back 5mths ago, are you single ?
- Yes.
Think back 5 years ago, i was also single :D

2. Who can you blame for your bad mood today ?
- I've been in a good mood today! :D

3. How was your night, last night ?
- Nights are dark. Ok, i think i was watching dramas until the wee hours in the morning. :D

4. How are you feeling right now ?
- Damn annoyed, cos i can't find the song i want online. I can't even find the title of the song!

5. Who were the first 2 person you heard this morning ?
- Mum and bro. Especially Bro. Super loud mouth kong

6. What are you listening to now ?
- The sound of wind coming out from my fan and my fingers typing.

7. Do you think someone is thinking of you right now ?
- Like who? Oh, luckyboy. He's thinking of me cos he wants me to faster get to sleep. So sweet right? :D

8. Last thing you bought ?
- FOOD

9. Are you a jealous person ?
- Yeah, sometimes. But it depends on the person. I'm not gonna get jealous over some idiotic people who think they're great.

10. Does it take alot to make you cry ?
- Pain, yes. Emotions, no.

11. What are [ were] you doing 12.30 in the afternoon ?
- Sleeping and dreaming away i guess?

12. Think alot before you sleep ?
- Yes!

13. What's running through your mind right now ?
- Everything that concerns me. Ok, i know this id dumb.

14. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to ?
- Yup.

15. Do you like to cuddle or snuggle ?
- Er, is there a difference between the two?

16. Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now ?
- Yeah

17. Do you wish someone would text or call you right now ?
- Only if its about something nice. I won't want any idiots calling or texting me rubbish stuff like chain messages.

18. Is your life anything like it was a year ago ?
- Not really. I guess my life changed quire a bit?

19. How late did you stay up last night ?
- 3am plus.

20. You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it ?
- Plain water. Its the healthiest! Do you study F&N? Water has six very important functions to the body :D

21. Have you lost contact with someone you didn't wish to lose ?
- Yessssssssss. But thinking back, if they didn't bother to contact me, it shows that they're not true friends. So why should i care?

22. Who are your fave person to talk to when your down ?
- Her. And maybe him? I don't know. It depends on whats the problem.

23. Does anyone calls you baby ?
- I'm a teenager!

24. Are you a patient person ?
- Sometimes yes, sometimes no. Depending on who's the person i have to be patient with.

25. What is the last thing you said out loud ?
- I just switched on the com!

26. Any plans for tomorrow ?
- Not at the moment. Maybe i'llgo kovan visit Eve. Anyone wants to ask me out? I'm available :D

27. What you can't wait for ?
- O levels to end

28. Would you go out in public looking like you do right now ?
- I'm in pyjamas! God no!

29. What is the worst way to say "iloveyou" ?
- When you don't mean it at all.

30. Seven weeks from now, will you be in relationship ?
- I'm not a fortune teller, darling.

31. What do you carry with you all the time ?
- My phone?

32. Are you mean ?
- YES. But not as mean as someone *hint hint* haha!

33. What holidays are your b'day(bd) closest to ?
- March

34. What is the last thing you searched on google ?
- The song i wanted. But no results! :(

35. tag 5ppl to do this quiz .
- You,you,you,you&you!
Saturday, June 20, 2009 @ 8:38 PM

I miss the days i spent in Europe.
Although everyday's activities were tiring and at the end of the day we had to do group reflections before we can sleep, it was fun. Everyday was filled with fun and excitement, joy and laughter. No worries.
And the trip somewhat made us independent.
You know the sentence that is shown at the end of every post?

This -> I saw the Moon beside the Sun, accompanied by the Stars <3

Its true ok. I'm not crapping or imagining it. In Europe, i really saw this scene. And its a scene that i will never forget. It was nothing but beautiful and amazing. The sun was setting, the moon was rising, and the stars were already out.
I can't describe the feeling that i felt upon seeing it. I was just plain happy?
Thus i made a wish upon the setting sun, the rising moon and the stars. But my wish had yet to come true. And i doubt it ever will.
@ 8:21 PM

Met up with Tiffany early in the morning today.
Ok, not really in the morning, it was 11 plus. So late morning? :D
Borrowed grey cardi from her. Thx! :D

Cabbed to CP with her then went to blue max look see look see while waiting for her friend Michelle. And she ended up buying 3 sets of shows! Haha influenced by me? Not really. I only introduced shows to her. I didn't ask her to buy! IS she can't resist temptation. :D
She bought Dou niu yao bu yao and Bai quan nu wang. Happy watching girl! Dou niu is a very nice show ok!
Her friend came, so i left for home.
Tiffany! Lets go out for s longgg shopping trip if holidays are extended! :D

And then i wasted my day away. Mum's at home, dad's at home, bro went out. So the 3 of us stayed at home and did nothing except for talk and my dad kept on making funny comments about everything under the sun which made mum and i laugh like mad women.
They're out to buy dinner cos they're lazy to cook. So i'm patiently waiting for my dinner now :D






Pictures are silent killers.
They're capable of stabbing and jabbing my heart, like sharp knives.
Oh well, but i guess everything is predestined right?
Thats what people always say.
She once told me,
the best way to forget a person is to like another.
This, is much easier said than done.

CRAP
Friday, June 19, 2009 @ 11:03 PM

Stop behaving like this. Its scaring me, really. :(
Thursday, June 18, 2009 @ 8:16 PM

I hurt my arm, again T.T
I'm gonna get nagged at again for not taking care of my already injured arm. :(
Its eff-king painful!
I keep telling myself.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009 @ 12:40 AM

Celebrated Darling Joan's birthday today. An early celebration though.

I wanna blog in details about yesterday and today, but my mind isn't really functioning well at the moment so i guess this post will be quite brief.

Yesterday
Went ehub with shumei ang. Played like crazy people in the arcade. And i finally got to play SSR again. After 3 years of trying to locate where the machine has been transferred to after zonex@hougang mall closed down.
Standard dropped a lot. Last time when i played with zhiyin, we could get pass 15 rounds without any problem. Now, passing the 5th round poses some kind of problem.
Oh well, 今事不同往日,岁月不饶人.
Ok, i sound like an old lady when i say this.
But yeah, listening to all those songs once again brought back so many memories.
I did a bit of thinking, and concluded that things do change overtime. Nothing remains the same forever. Whatever will be left would only be the memories.
Back on track, played till 6 plus, was about to head to plaza sing to play somemore but decided that it was too much a hassle to get all the way there so we went back to hougang mall to have dinner. After dinner we went up to timezone and played again. And we were the last to leave the arcade. :D
In short, we were playing arcade games for the whole day. So ironic right? Prelims are round the corner and Os are nearing and here we are playing away in arcades like there's no tomorrow.

Today
Went to Brandon's house to celebrate Joan's birthday.
Like last year, shumei and i were the last to reach again.
Xiaoting, meng liang, dalston, choon kun, james, joshua, wei long and aaron were already there when we reached. Actually we weren't the latest, cos Ernest came after us.
Stayed around in the house, talk, eat, take photos and watched tv. BAO LIAN DENG! Omg its such a dumb show. And yes, sean watches it too. And he fights with me for the tv just to catch the show. DUMB.
Then went down to playground and played. They played ice and water, but i didn't join in. Only played concentration, and we got so loud that people at the block upstairs were staring at us and we had to apologise. Idiotic. Its not even 10pm lor.
Oh, and for some reason all of of us were crazy over the mister men and lil miss capsules and we started to buy the capsules one after another. I want MR.BUMP! Ernest was the only lucky one that got it.And i'm jealous! Ok, whatever.
Walked to CP next, and didn't really do much there except for standing right in front of the entrance and talking. LOL
After a while we went our separate ways. Me, shumei, brandon and xiaoting went to another 7-11 to try our luck on the mr men and lil miss capsules again. And again, no mr.bump!
Chatted a while at the void deck and i bus-ed home.
Thats about it.

I haven't started on my homework yet. Much less revision for prelims. I'm like going out with different people everyday having fun and neglecting my studies!
Ok, i'll stay at home and STUDY tomorrow. I'm not going out, i shall be at home doing revision and whatever that needs to be done. I'll be shut off from the world outside and all of its temptations. :D


Determination and courage, I'll build them up bit by bit.But im gonna need lots and lots of time.Its not an easy task.
I think i've forgotten how to smile and luagh the way i should..
@ 12:35 AM

怀念你 回忆却恨你
赐我这天地
陪著你 为等告别你
明年桃花飞
葬过花 红过心 忽远又近
我与你 看遍烈日密云
你背影是我伤痕
我为你 能爱得比风沙更狠
将今生 弥补他生
谁知有没有下文
一颗心 多少脚印
谁可证实结伴同行
指天发誓 你我 若有天可再生
期求天意别要弄人
谁又会 答应
再生不爱别人
甜蜜过 而苦也炼过
哪里有帮助
投入错 剧本却没错
谁能谈因果
葬过花 红过心 忽远又近
我与你 看遍烈日密云
你背影是我伤痕
我为你 能爱得比风沙更狠
Tuesday, June 16, 2009 @ 12:31 AM

Had so much fun today.
but im too tired to blog
realise that im not even using caps.
shall blog in details with pics tmr
goodnight

ps: my dog is sick.
i feel like crying
Sunday, June 14, 2009 @ 10:31 PM

Hoho i just came back from a long day of shopping with family and shumei ang.
Family first then shumei ang.
Went to Chinatown to look for clothes. And yes!! Finally settled all stuff for career quest! :D
Chinatown was hot like dont know what.
Was having dinner when shumei ang asked if wanna meet at hougang mall to get some stuff with her.
So trained back to hougang, and met her at around 8?
And first thing i did was to go to dong xi nan bei to get my ear care service cos my ear had been hurting like F. these 2 days.
I've removed the stud from the hole and replaced it with a plastic ear stick. But its still hurting like F.!

Was looking for the stuff that we thought of getting, but gave up soon. Accompanied shumei to eat dinner, and off we went to the arcade to play!! :D
Played pop music and i beat shumei ang for all of the 6 rounds that we played!
She was addicted to some kind of mario racing car game. LOL

Was about to play the DDR when the timezone guy put the chairs on top of it, which means that they're closing, and no more scanning to play the game. wtf.

Never mind, so we went to play the guitar game. It was fun! Wanted to play a second time but they off the scanner already! WTH.
So went home lor.

Planning to go ehub and have fun again tmr with fellow friends. And yes, including my dear shumei ang too. :D

Ok, im gonna go bathe now. Was about to bathe just now when i saw the computer and couldnt resist temptation.
BYE~!









I've figured things out already. And i feel like its a load off my chest. :D
Nevertheless, i still want a good laugh. Anyone capable of doing that? :D
Saturday, June 13, 2009 @ 12:11 AM

I hereby declare that my heart is DEAD.

:D
Friday, June 12, 2009 @ 10:58 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MR. GOH JIA HUI!! :DD



Hello :D
Guess what?? I just came back from an 8-HOUR-SHOOPING-TRIP with shumei ang.
Surprisingly, my feet aren't aching. Thanks to working at gift a name for so long. So now my legs are trained and standing and walking for 8 hours straight is no problem at all. :D
I really miss working at hougang mall with fellow colleagues :(

Anyw, went to vivo to shop with shumei ang.
Went there with career quest in mind. But ended up shopping like typical teenage girls. Trying on any piece of clothing that caught our eyes and taking photos but end up not buying. LOL
We combed almost every single shop on the 1st and 2nd storey! Thats how we spent so many hours there.
Tried on so many niceeeee clothes! But the prices were all very "nice" too. :(
Forever21 ans topshop has many many nice nice clothes. And i saw kellie when shopping in forever21. So cool :D
Theres this dress in forever21 that is super nice! Costs a freaking $48. So tell me, how could i justify the purchase?? Haha! :D
Went to try on it for fun. And i couldn't bear to return the dress after trying it on.LOL
Took a photo of it. Photos are at the end of the post. :D

Shumei ang bought me my belated birthday present. Like finally!
So ended up getting 2 pieces of clothes from Nichii :D
I need to get cardigans. I'm getting one!
I'm gonna drag mummy to vivo tmr and get her to buy me the clothes i want! But not all la. God knows how much clothes i tried on today. LOL

After vivo we went to Plaza sing. (Yeah, like still not enough shopping right?haha!)
Shumei bought stuff from cotton on.
Didn't really get to comb the whole plaza sing cos shumei ang had to reach home by 9.

So in conclusion, i've gotten clothes that are not related to Career Quest and now i still have no idea what to wear for career quest. How dumb.

Oh! and and and, i witness a live fasion show at vivo today!! This is the freaking first time in my life that i watched a live fashion show. So cool. It was some kind of Thai street fashion. The music they played was blasting so loud that my eardrums almost burst. And the clothes were all so loud and glittery. But quite nice, though i doubt Singaporeans will dress that way.
And there were these few idiotic typical Singaporeans pushing their way through the crowd and stationing themselves infront of me and shumei ang! Idiots! As if the photographers infront of me were not blocking enough of my view,they had to add in to the blockage! But luckily i still managed to watch it, though with some difficulty. Poor shumei ang, she had more difficulty. Why? Because she's S***T.
OOPS. :D

Photos are here. I'm uploading a few of them only. I love the snoopy shirt. But it costs $33! Maybe i'll go get it tmr :D










Why am i seeing you everywhere?? Stop it!!
Thursday, June 11, 2009 @ 6:18 PM

I went for Literature class today, and i didn't regret going for it. Because i was laughing throughout the whole lesson, and chatting with Mrs V, which took my mind of things for that short little while.

Vincent and Kenneth are two cute and silly guys who never fail to make the class laugh during Lit lessons. :D

After Lit went CP to lunch with shumei.
Oh, and she went to pierce another ear hole on impulse.
Ate and chatted at Yoshi.
Kah min messaged about the church thing. Sorry Kahmin,i'm not able to attend. I know this is the second time already. Really sorry.
Bus-ed home after that.
End of story.

I'm going out with Shumei tomorrow.
I need to get out of the house.
I'm getting very no life.
Staying at home after lessons everyday.
I need a new life.
Something's very wrong with me.






Fine. Since you want it, i'll do it. But bear in mind, don't you ever regret this.
One day, maybe one day, i'll be able to turn the tables around.
And when this day happens, it'll be YOUR turn.

All along we knew this won't be easy.
Joan knows too. But we went on with it. Why? Because we still had that little bit of hope in us. We held on to that wee bit of hope. But, it looks like we're wasting our time.

Why did you have to give me a chance to witness all that?
Tuesday, June 09, 2009 @ 11:12 PM

If you've not realised, i already have tons on my mind and problems that are unsolved on hands. So, if you don't mind, could you please kindly stop piling more troubles on me?!
Stop it or you'll have to take a bus to hougang chalet in future if you want to see me.


I need some fun, joy and laughter to ease myself.
Cos i can't find anyone to talk to this time round.


Its either this, or that.



When today becomes yesterday, you'll regret what you have not done or said today
@ 12:21 AM

I've completed my F&N coursework!! :DDD

Woke up bright and early, but not willingly.
Went for F&N lessons, boring boring boring. Mdm Dewi was late, so went down to eat cup noodles with joan and ended up late for lesson. Dumb right? Yeah i know.
Then did almost nothing in class cos was listening to songs and talking real loudly to joan. Wondered if anyone heard our private conversations cos when we stopped the music, we realised that the whole class was real quiet! Which means that both of us were talking real loudly!
And i made Joan fall in love with oldies :D

After lesson went out of school to meet bran, then Joan, bran and i went to cp for lunch. We "exchanged a lot of information about people" to each other on the way. (Ahem, please note that i do not gossip :D).
Shopped around cp and spent money!Went into montip and bran and i were stupidly trying to bun up my hair with the stick thing.Dumb, but fun :D
And the whole time both of them kept on asking me to pierce my 2nd hole! At first i was no-ing all the way.
Then went to hougang mall to buy something, and both of them were dragging me to dong xi nan bei to pierce ear hole. LOL
And so, before i knew it, i was sitting on the chair in the shop waiting to get my ear pierced. I was hyperventilating!
I grabbed B's hand, cos my darling J didn't want to lend me her hand. Fine.
And then the person applied some stuff on my ear,and "click!" the stud was in my ear alr. Thank god i didn't scream or shout or elso both of them confirm walk away like they don't know me. LOL. It was damn painful at first. But now no more pain! :DD
Wooh! Finally gotten my ear pierced again, after talking about it and chickening out for so many times.
Thanks Joan AND Brandon for the encouragement! :D

Went down to basement to get dog food for my darling beloved lucky. And stayed in pet lovers centre for awhile to explore on dog products.Haha!
I wana be volunteer at SPCA. But im not gonna touch cats!

Ok im freaking tired i'm gonna sleep now. BYE~~ :D





I just called to say i love you! :D
Sunday, June 07, 2009 @ 6:45 PM

Somebody slap me please. Because i'm still sitting infront of the computer instead of doing my F&N coursework!!

Have to be in school at 9am tmr morn to complete F&N coursework. Which means i have to wake up early again. *sighs*
Ever since i've finished dicision making, i've lost the mood and momentum to continue with coursework already. And yet, the objective of going to school tmr is to touch on coursework!

I finished ah huan's maths worsheet!! As in the whole paper completed!! Yay yay yay :D I bet he's gonna be so surprised that i actually finished his work!
And i managed to grasp the concept of the chapter on compound interest,simple interest and hire purchase already. Big thanks to Brandon! Met up with him at 7 plus last night. Went for dinner and then studied till 11 plus :D Yay i finished the worksheet yay i finished the worksheet yay i finished the worksheet! Ok pardon me, because i myself donch know why i'm so happy over completing merely one worksheet.
Way to go, HEATHER LEE! Jiayou jiayou jiayou!
Hmmm..i wonder how long this motivation will last. Haha!




Sometimes, just sometimes, i really wonder if i can consider you as my good friend.
Because the things you say and the things you do are sometimes just beyond what i can tolerate. You complain, and complain and complain about things. And expect me to side you and help you to settle them. You flaunt your riches, and expect me to feel envious. Like hello? Do i owe you anything? If i were to be calculative, i would say that you owe it to me that you are what you are today. But no, i'm not that small hearted. I treated you as my good friend, i stood by you. But sometimes the things you do just drives me up the wall! I'm sorry if i've hurt you with the words i've used before. But really, i want this friendship of ours to go on for as long as possible. I treat you as a genuine friend. Just stop being so immature.





YOU,you've got me goin' crazy
Friday, June 05, 2009 @ 7:07 PM

I dragged myself out of bed to attend lessons today. Was really tired, but i've figured that for the sake of my Os, i have to grit my teeth and go through it.
I really feel like studying maths more. I still haven't really understood the concept of compound interest, simple interest and hire purchase, yet. Someone motivate me to study, please?

Anyway, first was chem lessons. Was struggling to keep awake but still, luckily i managed to absorb something about the chapter on the periodic table.

After 1.5 hours of chem came SS. we were only given 10 mins break in between. WTH.
Went to AVA for lessons. Mdm koh went through the mid year paper, and i really paid attention cos i wanna do well for my humans and not let her down cos i know she has high hopes on me. She even counselled me personally and encouraged me to do better.
But then there were 3 jokers sitting right infront of me. Namely Vincent ong, Benedict chia and Ter jun wei. Oh, and not forgetting another Andrian Lau behind me. All jokers! I was listening to mdm koh and they had to come up with silly and retarded jokes, comments and actions to make me laugh and lose focus! ESPECIALLY VINCENT ONG AND BENEDICT CHIA! *staring at each other* LOL. But i had quite a good laugh though. :D

After lessons i went to popo and yipo's house to pass them something. Went to compass to buy some food for them then embarked on the journey to their house, alone. Was hoping for a companion though, but apparently none was available.
Never mind, come to think of it, i'm used to being alone.
Reached their house, stayed for awhile and they chatted with me. I think i needa brush up abit on my cantonese. LOL.
Popo told me to study harder so that i will have a better future.
Yes i will, don't worry. When i get my first huge pay packet i'm gonna treat you,yipo and mama to a big feast at a hotel or a big restaurant. I promise :D

And then, i embarked on a journey back home, alone again.
Haha ok, actually its not a long journey, i'm exaggerating la.


Damn it, i missed the band's performance and i couldn't catch it on tv cos i dont have cable tv!
Sorry,sorry,sorry...





Won't you share a part of a weary heart, that has lived a million lies?
@ 6:29 PM

Hey lady, you lady, cursing at your life. You're a discontented mother, and a regimented wife. I've no doubt you dream about the things you never do. But i wish someone had talked to me like i wanna talk to you. Ooh i've been to Georgia and California and anywhere i could run. I took the hand of a preacher man and we made love in the sun. But i ran out of places and friendly faces because i had to be free. I've been to paradise but i've never been to me.
Please lady, please lady, don't just walk away. Cos i have this need to tell you why i'm all alone today. I can see so much of me still living in your eyes. Won't you share a part of a weary heart that has lived a million lies. Oh i've been to Neece, and the island of Greece, while i sipped champagne on a yatch. I moved like harlow in monte carlo and showed them what i've got. I've been undressed by kings, and i've seen somethings that a woman ain't supposed to see. Hey lady i've been to paradise but i've never been to me.
Hey you know what paradise is? its a lie, a fantasy we create about people and the places as we liked them to be, But you know what truth is? its that lil baby you're holding, and its that man you fought with this morning. The same one you're gonna make love with tonight. That's truth, that's love.
Sometimes i've been to crying for unborn children that might have made me complete. But i, i took the sweet life i never knew i'd be bitter from the sweet. I spent my life exploring the subtle of whoring that costs too much to be free. Hey lady i've been to paradise, But i've never been to me.



See if you can decipher this song. Its a sad sad song.
In the past, this song wasn't allowed to be played in public. Why?
Find out for yourself :D
Thursday, June 04, 2009 @ 5:47 PM

Please, I'm just an ordinary girl


English oral today. I was the LAST ONE in the whole entire hall to finish my oral. Why? Because my group's examiner was mdm Tami and she talked a lot. We were one register number behind the rest of the groups. When the teachers were already done with all thier students and have kept their tables and chairs, I was still taking my oral! LOL. But mdm Tami is a nice teacher though.

There's chem and ss tmrhave not done homework. And i'm feeling exhausted. Mentally and physically. I'm sleeping real late at night and waking up real early in the mornings. And my bro is laughing at me cos he's so free whereas i'm so busy preparing for Os. Wait, its gonna be his turn very very soon. :D
The term "holidays" does not exist in my dictionary anymore. Its studies and studies and more studies everyday. I think i'm not working anymore, not at least until i'm done with Os, cos i really dont have the time.

I had a bad dream just now. I dreamt that i was alone in this eerie house with only dim lights and the lights were all flickering like the ones you see in horror movies. And mind you, i was alone! I tried switching on the lights but the switches were all spoilt. And there were insects around the house! God, i was damn bloody scared and i tried to get out of the house but i couldn't find the door!
Why are human minds capable of coming up with this kind of scary dreams???


Sometimes, things are easier said than done.



眼睛是心灵之窗
True huh?
Wednesday, June 03, 2009 @ 10:21 PM

I changed my blog song :D
Old song though. But its classical, my kind :)
Title: The one you love
And i like the starting solo part.
And the song is meaningful.
And the song is my dad's all time favourite.
And Joan is asking me for this song :D

There's this sentence in the song which goes:

Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you?
Or are you goin' back to the one you love?

Joan and i are going gaga over it. LOL :D
Secret! :DDD
@ 9:37 PM

F&N O LEVEL PRACTICAL IS FINALLY OVER!

I felt like i was fighting a war with all the food i had to cook just now. At first nothing went right. The custard was lumpy, i didn't know how to set the pastry puff, and for some reasons i didn't like the smell of the chicken stock that i was suppposed to use. And the stove at my unit only had 2 out of 4 fires working! This really slowed down my cooking process! At one point of time i really felt like crying cos i thought i was going to fail practical.
But things turned out not as bad as i expected, but the food wasn't as good as i thought them to be. But oh well, at least i didn't fail.
And here's something funny. While we were walking in and out of the two kitchens via the fnn staffroom and preparing our ingredients, i saw benedict talking to a bowl of mashed scrambled eggs when i walked through the staffroom! Omg i couldn't stop laughing and my stomach was hurting and i think joan, jun wei and ain thought that i went crazy. Benedict looked really funny when he stared at the bowl of eggs and muttered a few words. I just couldn't stop laughing. And talking of it starts me laughing again. Hahahahahahahahahaha :D
The washing up was terrible. Piles and piles of bowls and dishes waiting to be washed, dried, and returned to where they belong. I practically screamed when i saw those blue malamine sets piled up in my sink. Luckily shumei helped me with them. Thanks so much shumei! Then band people came in to prepare their food for their BBQ. Brandon came too!Had a bit of fun in the kitchen though.:D But he didn't want to eat my porridge, neither did shumei. Fine! So i kept all for myself, and trust me, it was delicious.:D My fruit tartlets came out disastrous at first, but with some alternatives, managed to turn out well too.And i presented the tarts in a heart basket. It looked so sweet and valentine-ish! I took the basket and went up to joan dear and "confessed" to her but she rejected my love!!!Stupid shallow woman! So much for loving her! Haha.. okok, i know why she rejected me!!Hmmm. but i'm not gonna be mean and say the reason out. LOL!:D Will post pictures of my food when i have the time.

Here's something so cool that happened today. I TOOK BUS WITH ALBERT TEOH TO SCHOOL!
Haha amazing right? Was on the bus with hui mei and alvina, and he boarded the bus at the next stop. At first i looked out of the window and thought to myself: that guy looks a bit familiar.......then i saw his oh so big specs, and his hair.....Then i went "OMG ITS AH HUAN!" LOL. He sat with us and chatted with us, alighted one stop earlier then cos he wanted to have his breakfast before he went to school.
And i think he changed his strategy of teaching me. No more using the harsh way?? Cos today he came and talked to me in a really very nice tone and asked if i could cope with current work. He told me to try harder cos my other subject grades are well but without maths, i can't go anywhere. Wow, i was shocked when he used such a nice tone to talk to me! Ok, maybe i'm not gonna hate him so much now.

English Prelims oral tmr. Sian!





I turned around and went away because i wanted it to be the other way round. Is it possible?
(This phrase is for YOU to decipher)
Monday, June 01, 2009 @ 11:12 PM

The Best Things In Life, They Are Free
They're friends and lovers.

Mother tongue O level is over! :D
Ok, not really. There's still oral and LC, but at least the written ones are over.
Paper 1 was quite ok, i used quite a lot of "ming yan". The only thing i'm worried about is that my story is not touching enough, cos i wrote it in the form of a persona. Paper 2 was average.
Very confident of passing, but not very confident of getting a distinction. I'm gonna retake the paper again at the end of the year if i score anything lower than an A2 for this time round.

After paper finished, went to Cp with ASM for lunch.


I watched Healing Hands III on tv just now. And for some reasons, i feel like becoming a doctor, so that i can save lives.
I watched the "tu wei xing dong" just now, And for some reasons, i feel like becoming a vet, so that i can save and heal animals.
I'm still thinking of whether to take up the vetirinary course or to take up any of the entrepreneurship courses when i'm done with my "O"s.
But who knows? Maybe i'll get into a JC! But the possibility of this happening is very slim la. :D

Sometimes i wonder, if i had went against the both of you 3 years ago, would my life be a better one now? But no, i went with your wishes, i gave up learning the things i loved and adored. I obeyed, only to find myself in regret now.
But is there any use brooding over the facts now? -NO.
Nevertheless, i don't hold a grudge.


And, will you please stop driving me in circles? I'm sick and tired of it.


I think i'm gonna lock my blog soon.


Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain.
Its been a long time since i had a long and enjoyable bus ride journey with someone i adore. Long bus rides gives you a lot of time to think, and if you're with someone, it gives you the chance to bond.


You know what paradise is? Its a lie, a fantasy we create about people and the places as we like them to be. But you know what truth is? Its that little baby you're holding, and its that man you fought with this morning, the same one you're gonna make love with tonight. That's truth, that's love.